The End

I'm sorry for not posting anything recently. Lets just skip that part and start with this post. Finally, 2009 has come to an end. Selalunya each year we tend to look back to our past and wonder if we had make it a good year or otherwise, we would look into our failure and achievement we've made throughout this whole year, count the people that have been involved in our life recently and begin to make new plans for years ahead. Its a different feeling altogether.

What a year it had been for me.

It wasn't a good start though. 2009 started with sorrow and very much depression from my side. And it took me a while to realize that I'm 20 enough for life and its really time for me to move stuffs aside and start to think about my life more seriously. Its not that I never had a thought about my life and things like that, but heck, yeah, I really haven't done it in a more serious way before I'd say . Not until my life turns 20 when I started to actually spend time to think about what do I really want in my life.

That was when I started to get involved with my own life. I started to get to know more people and started to do what I do best, in certain things. I'm glad most of the people I met this year had brought out the best in me and I'm glad I've been given opportunity that I couldn't possibly ask for more. I think this year I have found the pieces of my life that i broke the previous year. Last year I was broken and I was, everywhere. Finally I had put it altogether and found myself back.

Like everyone else, my life too, has been a roller coaster ride. It has been such a hectic month and its going to be more hectic for the next 31 days. and for the past couple of weeks I've been juggling my time with meetings, assignments, classes and exams. but put on the positive side of it. The hardest part for me is the time management. There are days when I wish like it was the end of the world. but most of the times, I like to take risk and look at the pretty sight of what am I doing recently. And so, I moved forward.

2009 is going to end hectically and this is not a perfect time for a sad news i'd say. I'm hoping for a happy ending. instead, one of the most hardest situation that I rather not think about is happening. Everyday since I received the news i would tell myself, that its okay, if it doesn't happen now, it will at some point in my life, if its meant to be, it will happen somehow. I swear I wasnt prepare for anything alike and I was down to tears when I heard what Basirah had to tell me.

Awak sedih tak bila kita dah takda kat subang nanti? sebab kita tau kita akan sangat sedih. selama ni kalau awak cuti kita terganggu sangat sebab nak jumpa. even pegi isi minyak dah make me happy enough. nanti bila dah jauh, sape nak layan awak yg gila mengada ni? gi teman kemana saja. janganlah lupa kita bila kita dah takde di sisi. dah start rindu awak pun sebenranya. cepatlah balik :(

- basirah

I cant put words in my feelings. I'm not going to lie because, at this point of situation, I am very glad that I've been busy. But the truth is, I am being delusional by avoiding myself to think about those things that have been in my mind this whole week. I am not having a good time with my life at this particular time of year. But I had enough support from people around me to keep me going on. But the one precious I had depended my whole life on, failed to keep me going, and she is moving out from Subang :(

I grew up in a surrounding that teaches me the feeling of wanting to love the whole world. That place teaches me the meaning of being appreciated by others. A place where I found those people I grew up with. Friendship is a big word there. It is indeed, the most powerful system that ever exist in Subang. What makes us different from other places is, we keep in touch. even Emak has friends gathering in USJ every year. You see,it isn't just friendship we've built there. It is much more than that.

One thing I can assure you, I will never forget each and everyone of you people that have been involved in my life. I wont because I couldn't. It's a long post indeed. To sum up, I would just want to say, this year, have been such a roller coaster ride. One minute I was there, all blinded by good things happening in my life. too blind to even notice that certain things was just not working out. And another second, I'm here. Wanting badly for Basirah to stay at least, when I ring u for breakfast.

Why do people have to be so mean?

People who insulted other people, say bad things to the others usually have very low self-esteem. This is why they put others down, so they can be above you, up on the pedestal or something. So that they can make them self feels good. delusional. That day, something happened in FB. Leaving insults comments are just plain uber stupid. I'm not mentioning names and stuffs here because oh yeah, thank God I still know the meaning of respect, unlike some people.

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lets name that someone, A.

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I have nothing against A and my friends wanted to give A second chance for some particular things. But A had pushed my line and that, I can't tolerate no more. You have zero respects towards people. I don't care whether YOU hate my friends or planning not to involve in their life and I don't care if 'you and me' are no more but saying stupid things which will bloody put our reputation down and make us sounds like a spoil brat who doesn't really care about our future and studies. You are gone.

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Are you THAT jealous of us? my God, find something or someone else to be obsessed with, like a dog perhaps or be delusional with people from YOUR place and YOUR society because our world are totally different. We have an open mind but you're not! We love to take pictures and adore our self with comments that we gave each other. SO SUE ME. SUE US. If its really disturbing, then get the hell out of the page, moron. don't make me start swearing because like Maliq, I, swears a lot, too.

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We have feelings, we have emotions, we have moral values and we think alike. So we are nothing but a total different people from you. My MMU friends hated A since last year when you know, things happened. They started to give chance to A back when I did. You know, it's annoying. It's irritating and it scares the shit out of me when you commented things like that to my friends. I'm scared that you people will fight. But I'm not afraid anymore. Because you are nothing but a big fat looser and hell yeah, YOU ARE FAT, I LIED.

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You are soooo lucky I don't mention your name here because I've seen blogs about you, about how good you are in breaking girl's heart and how good you are in saying the same things towards many people. For the past one year, I've been following your activities in cyberspace. And those people the 'victim', they read my blog and by now they knew that we are friends. I know too many things about too many people around you and they doesn't even realized. baguslah that way.

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Getting to know people like A, I believe I've changed into a better, patient and understanding person for the sake of , that A person. But no matter how much I've changed to be better, A has changed into worst. A lot of things have gone through my life and i just let it pass by. any regrets? yes. I wish A was a stranger so I could disengage. I thank god, I THANKED God again for letting me chose my own path. Damn it feels effing good that I actually have the guards to write things like this here. I'm outta here. bye

Saya Cuti!

When I was a kid, I remember I wanted to be a lawyer because I heard I can get big money by just lying and having verbal fight. But now, after facing all the 'real deal' finally I have,em, not much, but some clue of what's going to happen next. Its not, and never going to be as easy as my 7 years old dream anymore. Its not just a mere ambition right now. it's a real deal to deal with. Atleast now I know that life will be harder than one could ever imagine. Atleast now I will live as I believe.

If there's one thing I hate about life, it's the fact that we cant turn back time. If I have the chance to travel back trough time, I wanna go back to anywhere but 20's. I miss being 7 years old kid, go to school, eat the best nasi lemak on earth, come back home watch Maria Mercedes,eat lunch,sleep. The last thing to be worried about are results and bills. The only problem I had that time was, the laziness of going to school and doing homework. And sometimes, the 30sen my friend pinjam without any niat to pay back.

Stopp whining about how much you wanted to turn back time lah aliah oi. i, for one, will never get satisfied with my life. but if I am, the it is my life. being like this.

Anyway, its 2am, its holiday night, and I cant sleep. I will only fell sleepy at around 3 am and woke up around 11am, have brunch, watch TV, read novel, go online, go back to sleep. Its an everyday thing, really. Bored out of my shallow brain. I felt like going out but then I ended up worrying about moneyhh. While everyone else are busy preparing for finals, I am alll aloneee in Subang. By the time they starts their holiday, I'll be packing my bags back to Melaka. takpe, redha. lah sangat.

Talking about financial problem, I accidentally overused my money for the BBQ open house we had last Friday but, it was all worth it. Irshad,Sudesh,Lee,Hana,Zoe,Khoi,Faiz,Panda,Kak Haizum,Abg Rezal thank you for coming. these are the people under my '10-guest-list'. we have 5 people in the house so we have made a limitation to 10 friends per person so the total number of invitees are, 50 people. The open house was funn and we actually managed to gather all the MMU,kolej komuniti,UTeM,politeknik people under one roof. cool.

I don't write frequently nowadays so once i write, I'm hoping to put in writing about everything I have in my mind. Like this one particular thing. I don't care if people doesn't reply my text. But at times, it is vital important to reply when i asked questions. But i wont be upset just because you didn't reply my text. pffft. I don't do emo in 'cyberworld'. But there is an exception to that general rule of mine. Reply, when I say, reply. because that will be the breaking point of me, wanting you guys to answer. that simple.

eh tapi janganla lepas ni tak reply my regular text msg without the urging order asking you to reply pulak!

I just believe that silent treatment means, you're dead. That day when I Basirah didn't answer my calls, i freaked out like shit. I called her zillion times and called Maliq asking him the last time he talked to her. And then finally she called. The first thing I said was ' kt ingat awk mati!!!' and she laughed saying that, kalau dia mati mesti ayah dia bagitau and we ended up talking about mati. see. see. Sometimes it is really important to reply. I might sounds paranoid but, anything can happen, kan.

Ok lah, I would like to thank all the readers for praying for my finals.I wish you guys all the best for this upcoming exam. Somehow the beauty of sharing prayers touches my heart every time i read people's blogs. And isn't praying for each other what it's all about? after all, what is more important than how we all relate and connect? what is closer to hearts of a blogger than the readers , family and friends, kan? so everyone reading, i can assure you that my prayer, will always be with you guys. insyaAllah,dipermudah, amin. bye!

ini.

Two freaking more papers je lagiiii aliah kama. dont lah get sick sekarang. later ok badan. later. anyway, annis natalia, happy 20th birthday sayang. kita syg awak awak tau kan? i wish you all the joy and happines. peluk cium syg cinta love bite make out dari malaysia :DD And another quick post, you guys are invited to our BBQ open house this Friday, in BBP at 8pm till late. make urself available and please comeeee for the food yah. doakan. doakan for my finals, its never too late. And anyway,Selamat Hari Raya,Maaf Zahir Batin like seriously maaf. maafkan tau! what else. em. I'm gonna start blogging soon. real soon. wont promise anything for this post. so, see u guys another 1 month yeah bye ;p

Selepas Sebulan

I owe my readers an apology. For not updating and for updating craps, I'm sorry. It's not that I don't have things to update but i guess Gamma year is a total hectic .

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Well well. for the past few weeks, I've been busy with lots of works and I've met new people. This week will be the 3rd week of me, not coming back home to Subang. shiatness.

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See see i feel like i have lost the sense of blogging that i ony write three freaking line for one paragraph. oh dah 3rd line edy lets move on to next para wtf.

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Haha. what else can i write eh. oh my puasa. I'm waiting for THAT TIME of the month to come because,entah saja,i miss eating during the daylight kot. haha.

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Anyway, I'm still lost, dumbfounded and just absolutely blur with things happening around right now. especially mooting. we have like, few weeks before final exam and I'm....still lost, dumbfounded and just absolutely blur.

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So, i guess these are updates. for now. I'll try to make September more interesting by updating my blog cewah perasan padehal takde siapa peduli dan interested aku update ke tak. perasan. perasan.

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I'll leave this post with 6 things u may/may not know about me. just a simple homework for you to think about in case I become a lazy bum to update macam last month. haha masih perasan orang peduli pasal kehidupan kau,alia. dah tu dah. bye.

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6 things you really need to know about me :

1. i talk A LOT to the people i am comfortable with

2. i am HYPER sensitive

3. I'm VERY hot tempered. so you've been warned.

4. i, for one NEVER a racist

5. i DON'T trust people. there, i said it.

6. i HARDLY move on when I'm heartbroken.

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pi / ess : saya rindu korang. korang rindu saya?

Good Friends

One good thing about being the only single person in a circle of non-single friends is, we'll get all the attention. in the other words, they will sayang us more.sometimes, more than their other half ;p

Good friends like them will do whatever it takes to avoid us from talking to the ex lover we had dulu2. Kalau boleh, they want us to move on. they hate the idea of us, contacting the Mr ex-lover.

As a result, they'll try to divert our attention to the other person.
A person they chosed.
A person they think that are so much better from Mr ex-lover.

Soooo that was when the match-making scene took place. Good friends love to be matchmaker. Yang best, bukan sorang. Tapi ramai yang dorang try. Tau2 je aliahkama is single and available. for everyone. haisyo.

It is funny juga to see how determined they are. I know they care too much for me. you guys worried about me, being with the wrong person again. because the last time i did, i broke down like shit. Everyone witnessed it.

What I'm trying to say here is, I love the attention they gave and the intention they have for me. But i don't like the idea of match-making. If its going to happen, let it happen. Don't make it happen. Don't match make.

I'm not the kind of girl who flirt around with boys, no matter who it is. I'm not saying that we can't flirt and all. Can lah kot but flirt with class and dignity. But I'm not flirty. I'm the type of girl who will fall for a guy who i least expect to fall for. blerqghjjkj. Corny sial.

okay, whateverness. Move that aside, i will start dating again. someday.

In the mean time trust me when i say that I'm not ready for any other commitments. yet. And trust me when i say, i will not, i stress not, come back to him or do whatever bullshits anymore. chill ya kwn2. chill yaw. ;p


p/s : i still love u guys anyway. because i don't really know the other way :)

Kilang Kertas

I'm flattered by how you guys still read my blog. *tears*. This is the only medium we have to stay connected. But right now, at this moment, no lah actually everytime wtf, I've been a lard on blogging because... no internet in BBP, i'm too lazy to write, i've grown fat and no mood to blog. ah, pick one lah.

I am blogging because I'm free at this moment and the Internet connection in CITS is not so bad. usually it's just...wanna die. just to open facebook also takes ages. Somemore people sitting behind you will try by any chance they have to see what we are typing. damn tak selesa. YES YOU BEHIND ME I"M SO TALKING ABOUT YOU.

Anyways, updates updates. Seriously what to update pun since I have forgotten most of the things happened in the past and yes I knew Man Utd came to Malaysia don't have to rub it in my face. YOU THINK YOU SO COOL YOU WATCHED THE MATCH ISSIT?? ok lah very cool. one day I shall go to Old Traff itself. One day. One day.

This post is so random I want to write about things I have in my mind. First i just realized that my dad doesn't shit money. Nor does he pluck money form trees. so i better not spend too much money for things like, shit. Honestly, mana pergi doh duit! I don't, I stress don't, do much shopping. tau2 je habis! like seriously, why can't I manage my own freaking money??

Secondly, I have issues with some of the short forms people use in SMS. I hate it when I have to actually THINK what they meant. Contoh macam, the word "nanti". I have received few SMSes that shorten the word nanti to "T". wtf gila kan. short forms is another thing and how about people who type like shit long and spell things retarded-ly.

"aWk ceHat kEw? T kiTew JuMpeW YeRk. UaNg wiNduw kat aWk. JomS peGiw MaTiE BaBy jOoOOOm." (contoh)

Did your saliva just drool over your pacifier when you type that???weh annoying gila nak mati weh. Seriously ITS FREAKING MENTAL ABUSE!!!! Fatin i think you know who type like this kan. if anyone send me this type of SMS or comments or anything alike, I'll ignore you. I'm serious. even if you are my housemate.

Okay I'm done with this post. Going back to BBP. i know. pathetic riteee. for MMU students, to be sitting in CITS lab typing blog is somehow, pathetic. blrgeqhh.Right now, I'm off to sleep. no lah, actually off back home to study Mooting foooohhhhh I damn semangat I love Mooting I wanna marry my lecturer HAHA. diam lah bye.

Berus

1) H1N1

I'm sick. I'm very sick.

I heard ixora dah ada kes eh?

lets just pray I'm just having a normal fever.

2) Law Seminar

Federal Court Judge is coming to MMU.

I had my rehearsal

and I was sick.

3) Mooting

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4) Birthday

happy birthday maliq.

i was too busy with things sampai lambat wish.

and i was sick, remember? ;p

happy birthday kakak.

5) akhir kata

itu je lah. rindu semua. minggu ni, bangun dengan rasa paling tenang di dunia. despite the fact that my body is not in a very good condition.

Satu je kata2 buat siapa2 yang berkenaan, i promise i'll take care of myself and i'll listen more to people.

bye semua. bye bye.

Self Made kenduri + reunion

Surprise kenduri doa selamat for fatin's birthday was held on the 28th June. This is indeed my 2nd personal favourite self made event which i think was held smoothly. Terima kasih banyak2 kepada Farah Aina, Ida, Nabila, Lisa, Ween, Muni, Sudesh sebagai orang2 dibelakang tabir. Tetamu datang dalam 30 orang and alhamdulillah, there were enough food for everyone.

A big Thank you to Abang Hamdan for conducting bacaan yasin and solat isyak berjemaah. Hanif for bringing the yassin. kak haizum, kak alia, abang rezal, abg aizam. It was an honoured for us, to have u guys in our house. from th very bottom of my heart, i thank each and everyone of u for making things happened. kakak2, adik2, abang2, sebaya2, terima kasih!

not in picture : marcaroni ;p

And to you fatin, u gave me party and i gave u this. haha gila bunyi macam apa. no lah. i thought it will be something different sikit if i do it that way. and furthermore, elok untuk rumah baru kita. By gathering all the Acheh-ians, ULCians and close friends, this is the least i can do to repay all the love and care u gave to me all these while. :)

On the 4th of July, basirah + peeja and i organised a bbq party at Apartment BNM court. This is a small party we make to gather some of the SMSJians before everyone went back to their respective uni and college for their new semester. It was fun. sangat fun. sangat sangat sangat fun. sangat sangat sangat ok alia, they get it already.

Ok annoying gila letak sampai 3 gambar. facebookdotcom suda. kepada yang belum tag tu, tag2 lah ya. especially yang dslr tu. ehem. ehem. anyway, the party wasss ok dah diam sekarang juga. cathing up was a real fun. some of us havent seen each other since spm last paper kot. atleast now we know what everyone is doing. kan.

Contoh macam raje sekarang kat pahang, basirah kat johor, pja kat kelantan. maliq's doing accounting, annis nak kawen bulan depan, jaja dah nak berlakon. see, thats the problem that could happen when we get all the information all jumble up in our head at one night.

Akhir sekali, thank u korang semua sebab datang memeriahkan majlis. maybe we can do this as an anual event kan. kan. kan? a different oragniser and different place pula next year. so siapa2 nak volunteer, please do. :)

Both this event were last minute planned. and being a last minute planner, i'm glad i worked with the most two great instance planner themselves, basirah and pja. u guys did a great job. selamat sem baru semua. till we meet again! au revoir :)

Penghargaan

Wah. Lama sangat nak update tapi tak update2. I hope it is not too late for me to say thank you to those who've been involved in both the surprise party on 15th and 19th June. It was unexpected. Ok lah that 15th’s party, i expected things when fatin on the 14th night started to cook spaghetti at our kitchen. I asked and she said she wanted to bring me somewhere when the clock strikes 12. And the actual plan kononnya she said we’ll bring muni along.

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So there will be the 3 of us je. I was happy enough. 3 of us and spaghetti will be as perfect. Fatin suruh bersiap pakai tudung semua. Lepas bersiap i waited for fatin and there goes the ‘black out scene’ when everyone came into the house. I didn’t expect it will be THAT many people. Ye2 cakap 3 org lah kannnn. It was fun and i was touched, really. Tq farah aina for the pudding, sudesh for the ice cream fatin for making such an effort and to everyone else who came, tq so much.

Trust me when everyone rushed into our house I stare at the door all the time with my head saying, ‘please ada diorang, please ada diorang’. And sadly, friends from subang were not there. When maliq called to wish, i really thought it was some kind of trick ke apa ke. Sial, it wasn’t. Malu aku. i didn’t expect that basirah’s apology message saying ‘sorry we wasn’t there and we’ll MAKE IT UP TO U SOON’ tu will be THAT soon. When they said soon, they meant, the 19th. That one didn’t came up to my expectation at all.

Before that Gha, aien and raje , my mrsm muarians friend came to Melaka and stayed at my place for holiday. They came on Thursday and I brought them to places in Malacca. We picnicked, mandi air panas,main kejar2 dgn polis, went to jonker street and a lots of other typical activity for tourist (lah sangat) (except for the polis part which trust me, u don’t want to know and i rather not talk about it tqvm). We had sooo much fun and i didn’t expect that they too, were one of the ‘plans’.

It turned out to be that gha and fatin all these while berpakat dengan basirah to throw a surprise party for me on the Friday. Masa tu fatin balik kl and we were out for picnic. Fatin told me she's coming home that day. What i didn’t expect was she came back and brought the SJians along with her. Funny part, i didn’t even perasan maliq’s car which was parked so near from the place where I parked. Another fun fact was the fact that tiba2 aien nak balik kononnya nak semayang asar. And it was just 3pm that time. haha.

Not just that, i opened the main door of my house and TADAAAAA there they were. Maliq’s watching Wanita Hari Ini, mimi screaming and everyone else. sibuk sangat sampai tak perasan orang balik. Not until mimi screamed lah kot. Hahahhah hilarious gila babi and i was screaming OMG KORANG BUAT APA KAT SINI??? And then they asked me to redo the opening door scene and i did. Haha. What really touches my heart was the fact that my beloved MRSMians, SJians and MMUians all gathered under one roof. Terharuu.

hadiah terindah :)

not in picture : sudesh,sara,adli.

The effort to come all the way to malacca sangat2 dihargai. I know how much money have spent for all that. Especially you fatin and basirah. Thank u fatin, basirah and gha for planning such a party. To mimi, maliq, alynn, pija tq so much for coming. I miss u guys a lot since i didn’t spent too much time in Subang while I was there. And thank u so much to all for the video you sent especially to annis from UK, nina from Bandung and ofcourse, adiela,shera,naadira,tasnim. Your video really made my day. Thank u all for the love and effort. I love u guys so much.

Malam

Ouh hell. is tomorrow 13th june already? ok its 2.30 am and I just feel like writing right now. but no,not about nz. too many things to share about nz so i guess i'll let that one pass for now.

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Since i came back from the tour, i became eemm apa ya. emotional distracted I'd say. I don't exactly know what the thing is but speaking of fact, I dont know what to do with myself.

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Tahu kan perasaan bila tiba2 rasa macam nak nangis tanpa sebab tu? its been a week now and I've been experiencing those feelings every second. dont cheer up just yet. i'm not going to jump down ixora

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I shouldn't be worrying about stuffs. with my birthday coming up, getting an unexpected result and bringing back those nz memories - with all that i really should be happy right now. tell me about it lah kan.

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Minta Tuhan tenangkan hati ni. I got distracted when I'm scared. teringat macam2. pikir macam2. can i not ask for 15th June to come? because i am no more strong to live another semester in melaka . :(

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*Oh gosh. here i go again. whining about my life in mmu. Heh, I wasn't going to say anything about it, because I thought I talked too much about it, but I must admit when I was in nz i wish the week can just pause there for another 1-2 month so that i could just stay there and dekat kan diri pada Allah and not to worry about any single thing, any single person and to just stay there and rebuild my semangat. lepastu baru balik rumah.*

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I really don't want 15th June to come. really. this will be the toughest 14th i ever had since, u-know-what 14th tu. its been about a year now. 14th July, genap setahun.and u miss A, u didn't even know.

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Tahu kan perasaan lega sikit bila lepas menulis tu? i kinda feel it right now. so i'm going to get a good sleep for myself. and i hope u guys have a good one too. good night semua.

Time Off

Exam musnah. mu kalah.

Dalam masa 48jam lepas exam, tido 2 jam je sehari.

Mata bengkak. hati bengkak.

sedih tinggalkan housemates c-04-16.

Contract law.legal system.

sedih.sebal.penat.letih.kecewa.

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Maka, tiba masa untu bla.

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Off to New Zealand bebeh.

Flight at 9pm, 30th May.

Will be back home on 9th June.

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Will be bringing packs of BRAHIM food

for those in University of Auckland

Tak sabar nak jumpe ashiela!

Till then rakan2,

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jgn nakal2.

Sindrom

update pantas

1 ) It's that time of the year, again. It's final exam.

19th - Legal Method II
21st - Contract Law II
23rd - French
25th - Constitutional Law II
27th - Legal System II

Minta doakan dipermudah ya!

2 ) Basirah, good luck presentation in Taylors. sama2 kita berjuang on the same day,ok .I'Allah smooth sailing.

3 ) Tahniah, syahirah and shahira. kakak for getting good result from that 'killer' prof. and shera for passing exam.

4 ) Tumpang doa kawan2 and pembaca semua, doakan fynn jamal untuk surgeri fynn, rabu ni.

5 ) Kris Allen, please. do it for me, please? sama2 kita berjuang rabu ni. good luck for both of us. cewah.

6 ) MMUians yang lain, good luck ya semua.

7 ) To all Contract Law student, i am freaking out, badly. i hope u guys aren't. pfft. who doesnt lah kan. this is by far, the taughest thing, ever. its not just the subject. its the lecturer. its our coursemark. its us. tahlah. apa2 pun, all the greatest best of luck to us.

To the rest of the world, don't stop praying. For yourself and for people around us,because some day we might be needing the same from the people we once pray for.

Good night.

Murid Kesayangan Cikgu Ngarif

Najwa, this is the least that we can do from here.promise me this wont make u cry ok? kalau tak kt akan rasa bersalah sbb kumpulkan sume ni. maka ini dia dari kami, rakan2 ex-mrsm muar. the science sixers.

from : incik unta

from : incik rafiq

from : incik boyle

sorry its pink.;p

Fikri : Semoga najwa sehat sentiase n mengalami masalah obesiti mcm rakyat aussie, berada bwh lindungan Allah and ado rezki gak, aku sambung sane nnti.hehe.
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Faiz : dear tiny bear y ku rindui...epi 19th burfday..since economy gawat neyh,xleh nak celebrate sgt..jimat2..ha3.ey jgn lpe pki topeng idung..ak xnk ko kne virus vavi tu. take care hokey..

Raje : aku rindu ko sgt2. hepi bezday..blek t jgn lupe bwk mat saleh.

Ain : Najwa...Happy 19th birthday! May all ur wishes come true.. May u always be blessed with love,gud health n victory.. he2. dont forget our frenship k? frens 4 eva!

Farawahida : hepi bday najwa! be strong! Allah is always by urside...

Ummul : Nay, epy bufday. may llah bless u.

Aqilah : Epy bezday najwa... may Allah bless u always n enjoy da age of 19 ;-)

Tikah : wey najwa hepi 19th dow. May god bless u owez no matter where u are, Ak doakan tuhan mudahkan sme urusan kaw n kaw dpt pe kaw nk. rindu kaw. love, tikah.

Afif : Hapy bday n mish u damn much kembar aku yg sengal.

Gha : Najwa, selamat tue. hargai masa belasan tahun ni.. mse ala agogo.. heheh ;-D stdy leklok..

khai : oii najwa!! happy birthday.. jgn lupe pakai olive oil salu.. haha.. ini pesan dr..


sorry tak sempat nak collect dari semua. khai di bandung tak dapat dikesan lak 2-3 harini. mizam,umi,sitah,jepun,MOKHTAR. sorry yah.just so u know najwa, u are always in our heart. and u guys too. science sixers will forever be brothers and sisters.kan. and u, our adik kecik please come back soon. tahun ni tak buat lagi gathering. soon insyaAllah,soon. apa2 pun, thanks to korang sume kerana membantu dalam post kali ini. i really miss all of you guys. take care

p/s : annoying gila gambar jadi susunan T. dan tak boleh tukar. pffft.

SMS

Kadang2 orang yang kita tak sangka, lebih hargai kita dari orang yang kita harapkan. today i woke up and i conclude everything; being a friend of mine, its really either u hate me or u love me. nothing in between. takde 'ok gak ar alia tu' or 'alia tu kadang2 cam sial'. no, really. its either u hate or u love. Sometimes all we need is just a simple text message and everything in Malacca will eventually feels right again.

aimuni : alia, gudluck presentation french tau. x best alia takde time balik tadi :)

varuna : alia aku di dalam kereta bersama fatin dan aimuni. tak best lah kalau kau takde alia..

maryam : thanks anda kerana mengharungi perkara tadi bersama2! anda esok balik elok2! enak gila ke rumah anda tadi! selamat garam anda!

bila hari aku gelap takde lampu,
Kau selalu pasangkan balik cahaya tu.
tak henti2 Kau tolong buka kan.
sekarang, buat masa ni dah terang.
jangan berhenti tolong ya, Tuhan.
-aliahkama

Goodbyes.too many.

In 1 month time, I will officially loose a

Classmate
Table mate
Waking up mate
Walk together to class mate
Assignment mate
Study mate
Homework mate

It saddens me a lot, anyway. the first day u told me about it we cried and there were silence in the air and i hate it. so i decided not to be sad anymore. instead i supported whatever your decision is and enjoy the remaining times.

We used to keep each other awake in those boring classes. the silly notes we wrote, stupid jokes we cracked. that's what kept us going. my life is not going to fall apart just because you are in different course. but it won't be the same anymore.it wont.

Anyway why did i have to be in the same class with you in every subject at the first place? then i wouldn't have gotten used to you being around so much. i should have prepared for something above ordinary like this.

Later i will be just short of getting down on my knees asking people to be my friend. no one will actually cares. we have spent last few semester ignoring most of the people. i think some of them will even enjoy it. it was silly of us to rely on 1 person so much. it's all coming back to us now.

Takpe, i will aim for new things and the year ahead will all make sense,i'allah.

So Fatin Amanina Yazid, good luck with your new course. u've made the decision and we respect it. saying goodbye to law will not be easy kan. i know u are sad enough. tapi takpe, this is all for long term advantage. glad to have you by my side in class for almost 2 years. happy to wake u up every morning for class, I'm glad that we actually planed to have a law firm together and work abroad. :( there goes all our plans of years ahead. mooting,cyber p. and all. takpe lah. atleast anda tak tukar uni.

let's us all pray for fatin and her new course.bye.

Promises

For most of you, i know its not a big deal. but it really matters to me. the unrelevant warning to drop the subject if we failed midterm for that subject have been haunting all the law students. the fact that 70++% of our senior failed in previous year scare us, a lot.

Alhamdulillah of all reasons, i passed. one moment i was down there on my bended knee. He tested me, and i handled it badly. Aku tak kuat, Tuhan. Sometimes when i'm facing the hardest time i feel like, that's it. i'm going to screw.

But without fail, He helped. Aku selalu lalai. tak bersyukur. pastu rasa diri yang paling malang padahal lagi ramai orang kat luar sana lagi teruk. tapi diorang kuat. that is the different. orang duduk beribu batu jauh dari Malaysia boleh survive. tapi kau, selalu jadikan alasan.

It was me. who always put something before Him. I've been given too many chance and i screwed most of it. i'm not having the best time studying here but for all i know, i just want to finish the remaining 3 tahun neraka and jadi kaya raya.

Ya, jadi kaya. that is my real point of studying anyway. i dont want any of my parents money. i dont want to marry putera raja and i dont want to win lotery. i want to be extremely rich by my very own money. i may not be the best student ever but i have Him to help.

Sekarang bersaksikan blog , kau janji wahai aliah kama.
janji jadi kuat lebih dari biasa.
janji habiskan lagi 3 tahun kat sini elok2.
janji bayar balik duit yuran, sewa rumah kat mak ayah.
janji bayar balik semua duit2 mak ayah.
compared to kakak, kau aliah gila byk susahkan duit dorang do.
janji kau takan biar dorang keja atleast by the time umur kau 25.
janji please aliah janji.
dah, lap air mata gi tidur. cewah merepek. bye2 sume.

p/s ; aku janji. korg2 jadi saksi ok.

Bended Knee

As a human being i know i've done too many bad things. selalu doa kat Allah kalau nak bagi balasan kat dunia for my wrong doing, please dont give it in terms of where it may effect my studies and hard work.

So today, i am on my bended knee. i cried and i dreamt about it. i've tried my level best to come up with the script this week and it ended in a very terible way. in short, something came up with my partner and i apparently, cant perform tonight.

Its fucktup, really. even worse when i will apparently get zero marks for the coursework. things like emergency happens, i know. but i'm freaking bloody tired. i just want to do it and finish it, tonight.

Its the 7th day of the month and i called my dad to remind him as usual about my money and all i get was 'dlm meeting.meeting'. that was all i ever get anyway. i'm not going to cry over small2 things like that. bodoh, kau already did lah

Its not going to hurt pun if every month i'll get the money only on the 10th or 11th day of the month itself because u know, parents are too busy to even put the money into my account. but takpe, i'll get the apology sms on the night i called every month.

Whenever i called my mom, she will talk to the other line and i'll end up letak telefon and sms her instead. sometimes, she'll talk to the client and let me wait and sperti biasa, i'll put down and sms. tapi i still love them anyway.

The thing about mak, ayah is not a major problem anyway. its just that, too many things happened and i feel really billy bad right now. i just want to do that mazafucka drama and get all my work done. no more bad luck, s'il vous plait.

jadi kuat alia. jadi kuat.