maaf

to emak
tonite
sorry for keeping you waiting.
sorry for coming back late.
sorry for not studying.
sorry for making u mad.

to ayah
today
sorry for being a bad girl.
sorry for borrowing ur car till midnite.
sorry for spending lots of ur money.

to the both of u
since i 1st step in mmu,lots of things happen.
i just want to say sorry
for not being able to pay back all ur money.
sorry for not getting good results.
sorry for failing papers.
sorry for having too much good time.
sorry for doing things in melaka without permission.
sorry for always making u worried.
sorry for not calling.

in this whole life,
i'm sorry
for making u cry.
sorry for spending hours with frens.
sorry for being too loud.
sorry for all the arguments.
sorry for taking things for granted.
sorry for betraying trust.
sorry for not being as good as kakak.
sorry for not being as brilliant as wani.
sorry for just being an adik.


for u my creator,
i'm sorry for myself.

hello

since i hardly post nowadays,these are some updates:

i eat a lot since i arrived home.
i enjoyed my raya day.
i shopped.
i failed.
i study a bit at home.
i havent see my friends.
i miss my mmu friends.
i think i hurt a lots of ppl in mmu in the past few weeks.
i am sellfish at times.
i want to buy the jacket i saw in jusco melaka.
i hope pyramid's jusco sell it.
i went to midnite movie with sara.
i watched enchanted and think it was just okay.
i went to midnite movie with them.
i watched golden compass and think it was a bullshit.
i went to midnite supper with fatin,min,zora n irshad.
i want to eat more.
i watch hafiz's video everyday since i got the video.
i joined a treasure hunt.
i get to know some new foreigners which was osama and murad.
i promise to study atleast abit tomorrow.
i think i'm happy.
i love irshad khairi johari so very much.:)
i loike roti pisang d way u do.i loike d mamak place we lepak for hours at midnite.
i think hafiz realise my existance now.
i hope things wont be that bad for syam and batch.
i am praying.
i am thinking of moving out to a new room.soon.
i slept at fatin's for 2 nights.
i am getting lazy eachday.
i need something or rather someone to push me.
i need somone but i dont say it must be a boy.
i dont need a boy indeed.
i think that is all for now.


thank u readers.
love.

another fuck up saturday in melaka

lasagna.pasta : assalamualaikum

biskut.milo : wslm.mak tgh buat ape?

lasagna.pasta : ktorg baru lps mkn.dah lunch ke?

biskut.milo : tgh lunch..

lasgna.pasta : mkn ape?

biskut.milo : twiggies

lasagna.pasta : twiggies tu ape?

biskut.milo : roti

lasagna.pasta : ha roti je??

thank you for appearing

"i'm afraid of everythings happening around me.what i need is just the thought of having you.i dont need you to say or do anything.with that thought,i survive well.

even in just milisecond u appear,

even if u said ambigous n uncertain words

even u always left me out

even i always waited for u in tears,

i smiled.

and that is what counts.

i smiled."

made by-aliakama