Malam

Ouh hell. is tomorrow 13th june already? ok its 2.30 am and I just feel like writing right now. but no,not about nz. too many things to share about nz so i guess i'll let that one pass for now.

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Since i came back from the tour, i became eemm apa ya. emotional distracted I'd say. I don't exactly know what the thing is but speaking of fact, I dont know what to do with myself.

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Tahu kan perasaan bila tiba2 rasa macam nak nangis tanpa sebab tu? its been a week now and I've been experiencing those feelings every second. dont cheer up just yet. i'm not going to jump down ixora

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, yet.

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I shouldn't be worrying about stuffs. with my birthday coming up, getting an unexpected result and bringing back those nz memories - with all that i really should be happy right now. tell me about it lah kan.

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Minta Tuhan tenangkan hati ni. I got distracted when I'm scared. teringat macam2. pikir macam2. can i not ask for 15th June to come? because i am no more strong to live another semester in melaka . :(

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*Oh gosh. here i go again. whining about my life in mmu. Heh, I wasn't going to say anything about it, because I thought I talked too much about it, but I must admit when I was in nz i wish the week can just pause there for another 1-2 month so that i could just stay there and dekat kan diri pada Allah and not to worry about any single thing, any single person and to just stay there and rebuild my semangat. lepastu baru balik rumah.*

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I really don't want 15th June to come. really. this will be the toughest 14th i ever had since, u-know-what 14th tu. its been about a year now. 14th July, genap setahun.and u miss A, u didn't even know.

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Tahu kan perasaan lega sikit bila lepas menulis tu? i kinda feel it right now. so i'm going to get a good sleep for myself. and i hope u guys have a good one too. good night semua.