this post is full of pictures.i'm at home and i miss everyone.

this was my outing with the SJianz.annis came back from UK for summer hols.this was at shah alam's mapley.

on the same day,we went to tasik shah alam,bought durians and had a picnic there.it was hell fun before the raining part of the day.darrn.

this was annis's 1st holiday in malaysia after going to UK.kat rumah annis in shah alam.

this was during one of the weekend in 2007.i went back from melaka and they fetch me in pudu .then we went straight to one utama for dinner.
this was the surprise party they threw for me during the final sem hols.
girls day out during the final sem hols as well.

this was during the 2nd week of hari raya,last year.we decided to go to PD.it was gile seronok.we spent 2days n 1 nite there.syam drove us all the way from subang to pd.
last year.our favourite place.kenny rogers.
this was the day annis went to uk.it was in klia.everyone was there,but not in the picture.

ok.thats all for now.oh yeah.this last 2 pics was taken yesterday.3rd august.it was just a gen2+bangsar+nina n i.:):)

now it make sense why i love subang so much kan?

fuck lah.lately i posted some sampah je kan.i know.lets just not talk about 'it' anymore.anyway,midterm fever has started.i'll be having my exam on the 25th july(friday) which will be the MALAYSIAN LEGAL SYSTEM exam.i dont know about others but,i havent fully prepared.i have like,2days from now to do the final touch up.looking back to my alpha year,i have bad records for my midterm exams.i dont usually get full marks like the other pandai2 ppl and all i ever get was the average marks.damn.i have to work smart this time.

next week,we'll be having exam for CONTRACT LAW.it will be on the 1st august.okay.that one.that.is.a.hard.subject.sumpah takot.i've spent too much time for MLS and i havent start studying for contract.time management=failed.shit lah.wtf were i thingking tah.while i'm writing this,i can feel the tense.trying not to be panic,i promise i'll start reading tomorrow.

i have to go back to subang this week.i have to.i am so trully,madly,honestly,deeply homesick by now.foodsick.friendsick as well.i'll be home,insyaAllah but subang's friend..i dont think i'll have time to meet u ppl.because i'll be bringing books to read.huhu.BUT.dont worry.my midsem break is around the corner.it IS around the corner.it will be on the 4th anyway.cuti nnt sumpah nk minum kat dome.evryone should try it there.wtf.exam!exam!.wtf.bye

i knew i wont listen to my heart.
instead,i listened to them.as always.
i'm sorry.
trust me,its not just you.
i hurt my heart as well.


p/s-kuri died.
p/s-kak rozie pandi masak.

and you turned back.
that was when i clearly realised.

kadang-kadang bila kita tak nak,benda selalu datang.
kita tanya hati,is this it?
tapi hati cakap dia pon tak tau.
haih.
benda ni buat kita berfikir.
to move on or not to move on is what i've been thingking.
hari ni kita tulis sebab kita takleh berhenti berfikir.
kita cuba nak tulis pasal awk tapi it sounds so empty.
as empty as a hole in my body.
u're beautiful indeed.
kita tahu kita ada tertinggal sesuatu.
yg kita tak tau is whether i rather it stay long kat situ
or i rather have it back.
haih.
it sets me thingking about you.
all day long.
this is not good kan kawan2?

i am easily get annoyed with all sorts of things.i get annoyed with things like-what ppl say,what ppl do what ppl thought and to the worst extend,i sometimes annoyed by the way how ppl makes their decision.yes.i easily get annoyed with stupid decision.and stupid act.and stupid manner.i cant live around stupidity.literaly means,stupid.no brain.i define stupid as one that couldnt think rationally,provide no good reason in making decision and take for granted everything that suppose to be important in one's life.

i can easily get emotionally annoyed when i dont understand what is going on around me.that makes me feel stupid.being emotionally annoyed makes me a self centered person when all i ever did was trying to understand things according to my way.i am not saying i'm not stupid.i am like every other human being in the world.but i put my piroritized in 'rationality'.u guys have no idea how much i really care about rationality.i am not intelligent,trust me.i dont usually think out of the box.i have my own reasons why i think rationality is so important in one's life.

when i look at people,i always have this thing to catagorized them into rational or unrational group of ppl.call it a bad habit but i rather mentioned it as a part of my sacred inner that i sometimes wish i dont have.when i get annoyed with something,i turned out to be moody gile.its so easy to understand me i guess.when u realised i am not acting the way i am,thats when i am annoyed.i am not a moody person but this small2 things could just easily take away all my happy mood.tak sukeee

sumpah gua annoyed.

did i mentioned that i have the best housemates?

to all the syarifahs..this post,is for u.:D:D:D

one of the syarifah (i dont noe which one) had tidied our house yesterday and when i woke up,i realised everything was in order.for that,i wanna thank u.

terima kasih ya.

this group of people make me feels like home.

not that subang-kinda-home.

its my new-kinda-home.

melaka home.

yeah.i dont have any bad feelings saying that.

at last.:):)

in case if u havent noticed,Anwar is facing the latest sodomy allegation against him.

and in case u havent noticed this is not the first one.

in case u havent noticed,khairi jamaluddin had spoken out.

and in case u havent noticed,Tun had made a comment too.

in case u havent noticed,Anwar's accuser is a 23 year old men.

and in case u havent noticed,he gets only 1.69 for his gpa
and factually speaking, hes a uni drop out.

in case u havent noticed i am enjoying this kinda case.

and in case u havent noticed,i'm a political activist.

after this last line i wrote,
i found myself saying-wtf.hahah

malaysian political are so much fun.especially when being like me,i watched from far all the drama and without fail,i laughed.be a politician.be retard.be stupid.it wont make any better for the world.but please.please.dont stop speaking up because like any other bored student,i need entertaiment.

she entered the class.she waited.he wasnt there.

10mins later

he entered.looking all good.he spoke softly.

she smiled.

minutes later.

he asked.
what's the capital city of malaysia?

they answered
kuala lumpur

she smiled.half laughed.

he said.
good.
good try.

he pointed her
yes you.whats the capital city of Malaysia?

she answered
putrajaya

he smiled.

he asked
whats the capital city of canada?

they answered
toronto

he replied
its like saying north korea is a city in singapore.

they laughed.

she smiled.
and thought,
sometimes,malaysian ppl just dont care.
shameful of us.
including me.i mean her.

that picture.its random anyway.

ok.theres this girl.wait.i wont be telling names here bcoz i know somehow,she'll read.i wanna give her some name.it'll be fun.ok i got one.i'm naming that girl as 'herpes'.damn.that feel noiicee.

herpes here is one of my friend in mmu.atleast that was wat i thought before.apperantly i guess God love me a lil bit more than harpes.pity girl indeed.one of her friend happened to tell me about what herpes been bitching about me all this while.

surprisingly,that doesnt gave me even a slightly shocked.it was a good try tho.tahniah lah weh.i've been bitch-ed (is that even a word?? wtv) like,so many times with so many ppl.not to boast around,i'm actually proud to say that i am immune with all this fucking stuff.see.i'm being modest.wtf.

my name must taste good because its always in somebody's mouth.yes.i'm quoting.bitching about me must be fucking fun kan.maybe it feels like eating some nasi lemak sambal lebih telur letak atas,harga kurang kan? maybe it feels like winning some lucky draw when u actually didnt even buy the lucky draw ticket.KAN? answerrr me bitcchhess and bastardss!!

i dont fucking care about that fucking things u've been fucking talking since fucking forever.try to change me and i'll ask u to rot in hell.try to confront and i'll fucking annoyed u to hell.tell me i'm super sensitive and i'll say the bad words in front of ur face and we'll see who is d sensitive baby there.tell me i'm irresponsible and i'll thank u for realising.tell me i'm hypocrite and i SWEAR i'll slap ur face.

i'm sorry for this emotional post.
just stop,u people.
once and for all.
just stop.

3 against Italy
4 against France
and finally,
2 against Romania.

the game was rather boring during the 1st half.that caused me to watch the 2nd half all alone when everyone had fall asleep.dutch was saving their players,playing it safe and they did missed some attempt.the 2nd half was a happy moment for me when huntellar scored the 1st goal and Persie scored another.damn.they shouldnt sleep and left me chearing alone.dutch played extraodinary well in this year's euro.

on the other event,italy won 2-0 to france.i am an all time france supporter since forever and being one,i felt devestated.they should have their chance to win if abidal wasnt given the red card and ribery didnt get injured.i wanted to see more of them in euro actually.but they didnt played well.not this time.

so,Italy and Netherland are qualified to the quarter finals.i bet all the dutch supportes wanna see more goal from dutch.we demand for moreeee dutches~

today is my first day in degree.it was..em..okay .i'll be living in emerald park apartment for,i dunno for how long.as long as i want i guess.my place is fine.the housemates,rooms and everything else is okay for a good start,atleast.

so far so good i'd say.its fun tho when we have lesser class compared to the foundation year.i'll be free for the whole day tomorrow.:):)

i am doing fine here.but the moment my parents went home after sending me to malacca,i already misses subang.a lot.

so we did went out n had the greatest time of all.surprisingly with the lack of time n money(kot),they managed to threw a surprise celebration for me.celebration in advance i'd say.to sara,nina,batch,pja,mimi thank you for the great time.sara thx for the flower shape pillow,batch for the blanket,nina for the shawl(lol batch) ,mimi for the soft toy n everyone for the cake n the laughter.oh ya.pantun.

terima kasih daun keladi

lain tahun buat surprise lagi!

kt syg korg hawi2~

cheers :D

ini blanket dari batch.dia suruh post dlm blog dan bawa pulang ke mmu.setelah 12 tahun kt mintak kan.haha.terima kasih daun keladi.em..haha.sudah.slmt mlm dunia.

greetings people.lately i realised i wrote short post je kan.(i mistakenly typed shirt)wtf.i wrote shirt post.post about shirt.i wear shirt,and i write.wtf.anyway,my holiday has come to an end.i guess 3 weeks doesnt stay too long.it comes and it goes.next week,i'll be typing blogs in my new room in my new apartment in malacca or melaka or wateva it is spelled..shit.typing the word malacca itself gave me that bad feeling.

after getting my result,i am now officialy finished my foundation in law year.frankly speaking (or typing or wtv) the foundation year has been the most taughest year in my 18 years of life.take note that i'm talking about my 18 years of life.i dont know what might come later lah kan.dont blame me if in 4-5 years time ahead i might be giving this taughest year award wtf to the other years.anyhow i'm praying for a better life ahead.i had enough with those days at mmu.so bachelor in law,here i come! wuhu.

tomorrow is our girls day out n we'll be going to the redbox karaoke.i'm so excited.shera if u happend to read this,kt sgt sedih awk xdpt bersama.wah.and good luck for your interview.i'll be praying.and pray for me dat i wont spent all my last money tomorrow so that we can go out again on thursday or friday.or both. u all know how much i wanted to end my holiday with the most great/memorable/precious way kan.and its you ppl who can make it come true.now i sounds like some game show host.wtf.

oh yeah.i'll be 19 years OLD in about 4 days time.(hint.hint)damn.i'm old.1 year older means 1 year matured n stuff.i just hope i'll be more organize by now.and more independent.and more tolerance.i really have to be a better person than whom i actually are.girls can dream rite? dat is what i'm doing.good night all.

love.

Thank You Allah

alhamdulillah.

thanks for all the prayers.
much love from aliakama to all of you.because i'm so happy:)

good life

the definition lies in you

but you wasnt there.

.sigh.

wait.they never began to be able to end.

atleast that is what you thought.

you wont come back kan.

will you?

malaya genius

"if ever anyone approaches me to do a box set of the 3 films, i'd include the deleted scenes. but who would be interested in compiling my films, and even if there were someone, who would buy it anyway!"

i will! i will!

p/s: credit to yasmin for her new mcd KAKI BOLA commercial.its one of her masterpiece.

ghostly ghost

dayuumm.cant believe i watched ghost again.haha.blame me for being super bored this holiday.i pick up some lines that somehow,gave big impact to that drama...again,i have all the time in the world and i actually paused and typed all this lines.

"..but with jamal,i can be sad,grummpy or boring.i can be real for once.and he's just been so sweet,checking out on me to make sure that i'm okay"- julie

"...i was the guy she'd turned to after a guy make her cry.i was the only one who make her happy.she never saw that.she still end up with those guys.guy like zack imran" - dr.jamal

"u know,i am so sure we gonna solve everything soon pastu,garenti u ok.promise." - eza

"look,eza.we all miss zack.what u're doing here its not going to bring zack back.u know,its not.."- jimmy

"all my life i've never really bother to find out how people really are inside.but not untill now." -zack imran

"eza.i'm here.just focus.(after a few second eza tried to stay focus,she's able to see zack).selama ni i tak pernah tinggalkan u.cuma u yang tak nampak i." -zack

"there are days when i miss him but i know he is there.ther are days when i can feel him,his breath,keeping me warm.there are days when i feel his strenght.telling me that i can be so much more.and there are days when i dont think about him.those are the easiest,calmest days of all."- eza

"Dear eza,

kalau u dapat baca surat ni maknanye u dah sedar semula.ia juga bermaksud i dah tiada lagi.semasa i tulis surat ni,i semakin lemah.nak tulis pon susah.nak pegang pon payah.

makin lama,kuasa i makin hilang.tak tau lah kenapa.mungkin masa i dalam dunia ni dah semakin suntuk.terima kasih eza.terima kasih untuk semua yang u buat untuk i.terima kasih sbb u je yg tolong i.

i hope that u have a good life ahead.dont be afraid to follow your dreams.be all u can be because u only have one life to live.who knows maybe , just maybe we'll meet again....in another life.

always,

zack "

privacy

glorious glory!

so i didn't watch it...so what? i am still going to post this anyway.

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i just wanna say this to all those peeps out there who have been anti-MU all their lives esp to all those chelsea's fan especially maliq (haha) and my own ayah,nik and everyone else--

: MU are NOTABLY SINCERELY TRUTHFULLY HONESTLY MADLY DEEPLY UNDENIABLY NOTABLY MAGNIFICENTLY SUPERBLY GREATLY the most POWERFUL team in the whole wide universe right now. MANCHESTER UNITED are.


thanks sooo much to mr. van der sar for becoming the hero of the night.poor terry.i couldnt believe my ears at first when they said dat john terry failed to do the penalty.but after all,van der sar is the best.:D and the rest of the team (standing ovations to them) who'd made it possible to actually shut the a-hole mouths of all the people who always sneer at people who LOVE and ADMIRE the team, namely ME. now who's talking?

i am a bit devestated because i didnt get the chance to celebrate the glorious moment with everyone.Somehow,damn! i feel good.hahah.i feel damn good when i am able to condmened my chelshit supporters friends.hahah :P:P they told me dat last night match was rather emotional. was it true? damn chelsea.wat the hell were they thingking? wat the hell were drogba trying to do? hahaha.its kinda funny lah weh.

that was the best moment.
glory glory man utd!
:D



YES! the cups ours! the rest fan of the other team of the world can shut up and envy our freaking glory.

a new change

hello friends.
i've change my blog's colour. i kinda more like it to be less darker, and more pics i'd say.wtf.
those picture in the right hand side is some of the collection of my favourite pictures.and i cant make up my mind which one to put and the result is,i put up lots of it.a lots of it.wtf.sorry if it looks messy.

by the way,i'll appreciate if u guys can vote for the new poll i've putted there.please vote.there will be more poll coming up so,vote if u want and dont vote if u dont feel like it.wtf.ok2.the thing is now,i welcome all of u readers to my new blog.not really new i'd say.new looking blog.ok2.welcome to my new-looking-so-white-full of-pictures-blog! so,thank u for coming and have a nice day people.

lots of love,
aliahkama

two D's phenomena

its a hell tiring week for me and i wish i could just jump on the couch watching my two biggest star singing in american idol but unfortunelty,i cant.dammit.ok back to the issue.the incredible Ds. the two D i'm referring to here is the ever so gorgeous looking guy,DAVID COOK and the cutie pie DAVID ARCHULETA.there are both the top 3 of AMERICAN IDOL season 7.i love them both but i think David A will make it all the way to final and win the title.but David C on the other hand is going to grow fantastically in the industry.

I have fall in love with Archuleta since his audition.he's adorable and cute and sweet and has the voice of an angel.he's so down to earth and listening to his voice every week just make me feels like he's mine.hahha.bullcrap.no2.i mean,listening to him will make us wonder how such a boy aged 16 can sing damn well like he did.he is sweet.so sweet i'd say.

David Cook is the best thing ever.i started to like him when he sang always be my baby by mariah carey.i am known as the biggest fan of mariah.looking at him performing dat song so fucking good make me love him even ,more.during the final 3,he sang i dont wanna miss a thing by aerosmith which is happened to be my all time favourite song.damn.can u guys just see the connection here? i mean.he sang songs i like.from the singer i adore.seems like pleasing me isnt it? hahaha.i love u like crazy my dear david cook.

i'll write more l8er

special dedication

dear fatin.

reasons why i wanna thank you.

You are always down for me,
have always been around me when i was bad.
You look up for me when everyone was downing me.
You believe me when everone was making up stories.
You trust me when everone says dont.
You always did understand.
You gave me strenght to go on.
There was so many times when i was affraid
and then you come to me and say to me i can face anything.
No one else can do what u have done for me.

And for that, i thank you for all.

sincerely,
aliahkama.

art of movie

these are the top rated movie in my personal view.

The Notebook.starring Ryan and Rachel McAdams.The Notebook is basically the journal that Noah kept recorded everything that happened with Allie & him.

Truly, this film is an eye opener for us to discover what true love is.despite the challenges we face on a daily basis,there are things in life that make the experience truly worth it.

The most romantic movie i ever seen.The setting was beautiful.Rachel was fun and full of exitement.It is made with simplicity but give big impact in one's memory.for me,atleast. "Behind every great love is a great story"

10 Things I Hate About You.Although the plot is simple,this movie gave the biggest impact in my life,apart from sepet.

I remember i first watched this movie when i was 10 years old with my sisters and cousins.it is sentimental to have a memory watching this enchanting movie with my love one.

This sentimental valued movie staring julia and heath ladger.(RIP heath).I remembered the poem read by kat,by my heart.it's lovely.its almost 10 long years but whenever i'm in the sentimental mood,i'll still turn this movie on.

A Walk To Remember.another beautiful romantic movie.This is most certainly not a teen movie.i dont really agree with the idea of some of the teen movies.But this movie,is not.it is for everyone.

I enjoyed the romantic scene with the fantastic script that had been well written.it is certainly a movie to remember :D

Sepet.when they say support local movie i say,choose the best and support Yasmin Ahmad's product.She's tallented and we should be proud of having her in the industry.

i've watched all her products including movie,teledrama and commercial and thougt it was damn brilliant.Sepet is my favourite all time malay movie.

i've watched it for zillion,countless time and remembered by heart all the actors/actress line.Many people dont like this movie and think it is boring.but i do like 'em! :D

Ghost.i am currently attached by this malay series.did i mentioned it is a MALAY series? men.i am so proud.but not to be sarcastic it is actually a chinese product if we can see on the board of direction.anyhow,it is a malaysian prodcut.i LOVE this movie so much.i keep on watching it everyday.it is a damn thriller movie.full of suspense.and the best part is the romantic comedy all blend into a drama.

Eza and zack was the best. out of no where,tiba2 plak i rasa suka kat naz.before this i use to hate him because hes like a bit of annoying.but in this drama,he was hell funny and yeah,romantic.:P eza is sophisticated and zack is funny.they brings out the best in eachother.

my favourite line is when zack said , 'selama ni baru i tau kenapa i masih kat sini.utk perbetulkan kesilapan i and to have u in my life'.damn.i cried like hell when he said this.to all,i beg u..PLEASE WATCH THIS DRAMA at- http://www.8tv.com.my/ :D

This 5 movies are so indecribable and unique in their own ways.I have seen the notebook,10 things and sepet for million times.Everytime i watch it,without fail,i cry.call me a hopeless romantic or watsoever but personally i think it is great to watch a movie that can makes u smile and cry all at the same time,yet come out with such a happy feeling.

thank you

10 things i hate about you

I hate the way you talk to me,

and the way you DIDNT cut your hair.

i hate the way you hold my hand when it was freezing in the class.

i hate the way u say all the right things.

i hate u for making stupid jokes,

and driving me crazy all the time.

I hate it when you almost killed me when you drive your car.

I hate your lousy voice and the way you sing to me.

i hate the way you read my mind.

I hate you so much it makes me sick,

it even makes me rhyme.

I hate it when you lie.

I hate it when you make me laugh,

even worse when you make me cry.

I hate it when you’re not around,

and the fact that you didn’t call.

But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you,

not even close…

not even a little bit…

not even at all.

sports day 2

i miss my school year.last saturday i get the chance to meet all of my juniors and former teachers of sekolah menengah subang jaya at mpsj.it was overwhelming.

my university life was a hell disaster.

multimedia university.urgh

i miss school and everything about school.

those were the days when everyone appericiate me as a whole.
those were the days when i had had the highest social skills.
those were the days when people love me for doing things.
those were the days when i became well-known for my own ability.
those were the days when i had so much fun.
those were the days when i have everyone around me.
those were the days when social activity was the major thing in my life.
those were the days when i enjoyed being myself

but.those were the days and today...

today is the day when all my social skills has dropped

today is the day when everyone putted the blame on me.

today is the day when people disrespect me.

today is the day when i feel sad most of the time.

today is the day when i am all by myslef.

today is the day when i couldnt care less about my social life.

today is the day when i couldnt trust anyone.

today is the day when i forgot to be happy.

sports day 1

hello readers.

last saturday (22nd march 2008) i went to smsj sports day with batch and my adik.first thing in the morning i went to send my adik to MPSJ at about 7am.all of the sudden,i felt sad.i thought all of the situation was hell disturbing.

the road,the timing,the traffic,the breeze,the feeling of me sitting in the car,the car itself.it was disturbing.

i felt a total depressed.for the 5years of schooling in smsj,each year this was the road i've been seeing atleast once in a year for the sports day in MPSJ.i remembered everything.during my school year,ayah was the one who send me to mpsj together with my number of frens who happened to tumpang me every year.every single year we kawad for ranjer puteri.every year,there is always a traffic jammed along the way to USJ and that caused us to be the last one to arrived at the padang.

'adik rase sedih plak lalu kat jalan ni.dulu,ayah yg hantar adik tiap tahun.patu adik ngn kwn2 adik mesti pressure ayah suruh bwk laju skit sbb ktorg selalu lmbt.now adik anta wani plak.pelik gile rase'

rase there refers to perasaan.


i'll write more about sports day.
tq

dead girl

Why you gotta be so mean to me

Why you gotta drag me down just to make me see

You know I don’t listen good and I’m always in need

So why you gotta be so mean to me

This is too hard.

Ya Allah.

Help me to do what is right

and trust you for the rest.

:(

:(

:(

the ballerina princess

thank you shad :D

the wedding dance ::drama::

it was last week,on monday.after all the hardwork and all the group issues we faced,we managed to finished it.it turns out to be okay.but i was dissapointed.we could hve done better.anyhow, thank u fatin and hana for all the hrdwork and advice.PL03's drama was THE BOMB.all 5 short stories were presented SO-FUCKING-WELL.they were so good.the drama was brilliant.congratulations both to PL03/PL04 !:D

qilah was missing

few hours before presentation

it was 3 in the morning

yes,i am sad

i now pronounce,the most happiest person in mmu are currently feeling totally depress this week.
all the chaos occured last week.when i had 3 presentation in a week and i slept for 3-4 hours only per day due to the tons of works given.but atleast,i had all my frens with me and i actually enjoyed dat week so much.this week,things went no so well or i shall say things are going so bad between me and irsahd.the small little tiny misunderstanding added with a huge ego brought us into a big fight.

he said sorry,i said i'm sory too but things are not getting any better untill dis second.i went out with him yesterday hping dat everythings gonna get back to normal but all i felt was an awkward-ism.lots of things happend this weeks.more people hated me.and i couldnt care less about irshad compared to them.i dont care about them.hate me as much as u want.i'm not stupid to do all the dirty work like u said.u people judge me like shit.

irshad khairi johari,i'm sorry for whats going on with us today.i somehow have the feelings that this things cannot be amend.i dont know why am i thingking so negatively but i dont want to give so much hope.i realised that the happiness in mmu wont last long.i miss you so much shad.so much.

the thing is i actually care about what people think about me.and that is why i'm on my bended knee now.all those irrational people i live with,here in mmu make me sick.i hate this place so much,i couldnt even put in words how much i mean it.people are irrational and too emotional at times.and i think i've been influenced by them and dats why i wrote this emotional post.


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i'm going home.
and not coming back
for next week and the following weeks ahead.

happiness

yesterday shad,fatin,lee and i went 4 supper at roti pisang,the mamak place we always lepak at midnite.the different was that night,it was only the 4 of us.zohra was unwell.min went back to her kampong.rathi went to temple.varuna was missing.and everyone else wasnt there.but the 4 of us je dah cukup to made us stayed there for hours.more then 2 hours rasenye.we talked about so much things and one thing that really cought my attention was when irshad said that,i'm the happiest person in mmu.lee and fatin agreed.i asked them y? they said,i seems like dont have any problems going on in my life.ok.lets do the check list.the things that people
consider a PROBLEM is this:

boyfriends(i didnt have one) achecked

crush ( i didnt even bother) achecked

clubs/society ( my social skills has drop and dont even bother to fix it) a checked

assigments ( i'm dealing with it) a checked

studies (i'm stress enough during exam to stress myself on the beggining of the sem) fhm x?
a checked

popularity/image and stuff (to be ugly and unpopular is to be me.so y bother?) achecked

ok.now lets do the counting.i'm dealing quite well with all those things.so I AM THE HAPPIEST PERSON IN MMU.wtf.u noe.the only person that have seen me crying for lotsof time here in mmu is maryam.you noe why my schoolmates use to call me nangis,chengeng and watsoeva? because i cry a lot.i easily cried for small2 things and all.but here,in mmu.i am considered as the person with less problem because i didnt cry in front of people anymore.i didnt tell
ppl about my problems like i used to be. i miss being the old me. when everyone was around me and all i ever did was crying on them and letting go every problems i had.i dont mind ppl think i am happy.dont mind at all.:):)

new semester

introduction to governance and politics (mdm aiza)

assignment group:

fatin amanina

irshad khairi

aliahkama

amirah yasmin

varuna

lee lay peng

zohra

aqilah

rathi

islamic legal history (mdm nir-lofa)

irshad khairi

aliahkama

varuna

rathi

adibah

kak nad

maryam

introduction to business and mengement (mdm kerk)

(business)

fatin amanina

amirah yasmin

maryam

irshad khairi

aliahkama

rathi

adibah

lee lay peng

menega

aqilah

zohra

critical thingking (mdm masyitah)

irshad kahiri

fatin amanina

aliahkama

amirah yasmin

english2 (mdm selva)

(drama)

fatin amanina

aliahkama

ku afiq

hana

varuna

aqilah

sapit

law and society (mr hasbol)

n/a

birthday wish

happy 19th bday batch!

we were 12 when we've been putted in the same class for the 1st time.it was in sekolah agama masjid darul ehsan.in 5B.cant believe how much i hated u back then.hahah.lawok le.
we were 13 when we went to the same school.SMSJ.
when we were in our age of 15 we've been putted in the same class,for the 2nd time.
which was the bestest class in the world,3 BAKTI.
it was all started with this:
'batch,jom tukar tmpt kt nak duduk dgn awk'
smtg2 like dat. hahaha.
men.sitting together in 3bakti for a year was fantastic!
as time flies,when we were 16 we have been seperated by distance and things became thaugh
for our relationship when we reach the age of 17.luckily and alhamdulillah,we manage to overcome all the misunderstanding by the following year.we've been tru the year after spm together and now,here we are.
19th years of life,7 years of knowing eachother,4 years of being bestfren and half a year staying apart.
distance did make us became closer.i'm sorry couldnt be there to celebrate with you.
but i hope u enjoy the surprise i gave.love u much.happy birthday.

dont read

dear my heart beat,

probably this sounds like the rants and race of the love-sick-lunatic.well,it isnt easy to put to words what i feel,but here's my best shot. just to think about it,scares me.how did u do it? how do u make me so incredibly crazy? i guess dat sounds really weird,but i dont know.i'm not the easiest person to understand.i knew my feelings about it were strong, way beyond what i was willing to admit to myslef.just didnt realise it was to strong.

i have no idea if this is right or wrong.for me loving does not mean NEEDING them,it meant WANTING them.sometimes i see myslef hoping.its just a foolish hope dat i know will never come true.and i pray,it will fade away.as for now, i function between maybe and maybe not.but dat set me thingking...does hope and expectation give the same definition?

And i found myself saying:NO

i am usually ok.but at times(especially today) it just become to much to bear.i just have to blog,to share that sacred part of my inner,the thought that i think everyone has but doesnt always say.i know dat pride and ego gets in the way in our relationship.at this time of life,we are surrounded by possibilities of everything,and distract from other ppl,which i know have come between us.

now i sounds so not like gay.
heh.
just feel like writing and this is what happened.
i am no mood for love.

thank u.

the gathering

some of the msges-

the day we decided

gha- bile2? jumaat eh? nak ito..ak blek hr tu gak.nak2! mahu2!

najwa-kt,sntiase setie d kl.ok,nnt tlg bgtau ble eh

rafiq- ok.ble? sbtu ahad ni ke? aku turun.nk jmpe katne?

zulhusni- nextweek tu bile..? Nk pgi. Nk pgi.. Nk pgi..

aqilah- em.insyaAllah.kalo xde aral ye :)

aien- ph,xsabo btul nk jmpe korg.Expcly mizam..hehe!motar xyah join ah.mensemak je!

few days before

mizam- dok,cmne projek mega?

zulhusni-ak dmam dok...on da way nk sihat..nnt aku dtg..tu pn klu xde aral..

raje- xtau lg..tp tgukla dulu ek.em beznye sume ade..lame xjmpe..

blur- dah settlekan blum nengok pete?

a day before

tikah- leeya i cant wait 4 tmorow!

khai-alhamdulillah.currently in perak.die katne? awal gle bdk jengka smpi

gha-al,dorg kne ad kt ts kol bpe? fer soh tgu d,tp ak soh g ngn sean..

rafiq-ok2.amik aku skali kat kl cntrl.haha.thnx.salam.

on d day

gha- al amek kat ktm klg ke sbg? ktorg xkesah pon.he,kete sape?

blur- aku kat kedai mapley kat ioi ne

mizam- rapid alia lmbt lg ke?

after the excitement

rafiq- aleya.thx a lot 4 2day.happiest day weh.siyes aku mst rndu korg pnye ah.sbb tu aku mls gle babi ah nk gather blk.hahah.kan dah jd cam tahi.haha.stdy baek2.lem slm sume klo jmpe lg.mntk maaf byk nyusahkan ko.k.salam.

zul-ayah ak xtrok sgt pon.dah kuar hospital pn.ni ng odw gi urot kt kpg.bpk k kemslm blk..

najwa-thx 4 organizing it.thx a lot.we'll c echothr agai,k?

rafiq- ko jgn buat ak nangis dlm bus ni bengong.papehal jmpe lg al.aku syg kamo sume.jgn nanges slalu :'(

mizam-tq byk2 espcially ko sndiri

aien- hahah.sengal! boling mmg bez.smpi ble ktorg igt!!

khai- thx 4 d lost journey 2 puduraya.ahaks.u r the best in boling..hahah

.it was memorable.

thank you notes

dear all readers,

thank u for spending your time reading my blog.
or rather WASTING your time here, reading my blog.
to the person in jakarta,indonesia i'm honoured to have u here.
a big THANK U for all.
to all readers,
please dont link me yah.
i'm not a good blogger and i think my blog doesnt deserve to be link in any way.
i'm not a good writer and linking my blog wont make any better for the world.
so,just let it be this way.n yah,i want to thank all of u again for visiting.
to make things clear,i will say this again..
i am not a good blogger.
thank u.

what makes me happy

i have all the time in the world and i googled for pictures of delicious foods.hehe.

chocolate hersheys cake

ice cream waffle

banana pie

so people,

thank u :):)

the notes

today is another day.as i sat by the window wondering about stupid things,i asked myself what i really want in life.many people will answer,i want to finish up my studies,get a good job and FINALLY get marry or in other terms "settle down".people answer that question that way and ended it up at the married part.does everyone rily think getting married is the way to settle things down? i have a big doubt on it.in fact,i'm starting to wonder is there such fact dat we have been guarantee to marry our TRUE LOVE instead of a jerk? how can everyone be so sure when they get married.i mean,how on land when they said the magical words 'i do' they seems to b so sure about their decision? i mean,come on.i need the answer.in my life,i've been in a serius relationship with some guys and i never ever had a 'feeling' about me getting married with anyone of them.i'm worried if i wont be able to feel that forever.its stupid when they say,i'm saying this bcoz i never been in love with that so called true love.that is bullshit.when i fall in love with my exes,i love them deeply.in fact, i once said to syafiq that i noe he's my true love bcoz..bcoz..ok.stop it right there.ok.i'm running out of idea to do somemore obiter dictum about this crap.i'm writing this bcoz,my cousin gaga+mus and aien+his bf going to marry this year.yirpie 4 them!:) gaga and mus have been in a relationship for TEN-LONG-YEARS. i'm happy they are finally getting marry.congratulations all.

good friends

some people leave
some people forget
some people just dont know
some people stay
some people cant let go
some people are too insecure to leave
some people leave but come back to visit often, have tea or something. but apparently, even after everything is ironed out, it just isnt enough.

what they dont know is,everythings changed.
what they dont realised is what they did is way absurd.
what they thought is i'm leaving a happy life.
what they ignore is my feeling.
its u.u people hurt me so bad i wish i can just move on without u guys.
i'm hurting and i'm crying.
friends.do u fucking care what i fucking feel?

what i need is just some attention.a lil tiny bit of attention i demand.i dont like feeling left out.u both hurt me so much and yet,u didnt realise.one of u,i msgd u and u just forget.i ran out to fatin's and cried. i didnt tell her what was happening.i just cry. i just cry.the next day i cry.the following day i cry.and today,i'm crying. as for the other 1 person,thank u for making me the last person to know everything.

tell me i'm super sensitive and i'll thank you for caring.
tell me i've done the same thing u're doing rite now when i was in a relationship and i'll turned back time.
tell me u need time and i'll give u a big one.
tell me i'm just a pathetic friend whom doesnt like to see her friends living a happy life and i'll just cry.
tell me i'm not important anymore and i'll thank u for being honest.

2 0 0 8

the most bad thing happened in 2007- spm result

the most good thing happened- getting over with the bad one

thank you Allah for everything.

lets hope things will be better this year.

dont just hope,pray.

happy new year friends.

maaf

to emak
tonite
sorry for keeping you waiting.
sorry for coming back late.
sorry for not studying.
sorry for making u mad.

to ayah
today
sorry for being a bad girl.
sorry for borrowing ur car till midnite.
sorry for spending lots of ur money.

to the both of u
since i 1st step in mmu,lots of things happen.
i just want to say sorry
for not being able to pay back all ur money.
sorry for not getting good results.
sorry for failing papers.
sorry for having too much good time.
sorry for doing things in melaka without permission.
sorry for always making u worried.
sorry for not calling.

in this whole life,
i'm sorry
for making u cry.
sorry for spending hours with frens.
sorry for being too loud.
sorry for all the arguments.
sorry for taking things for granted.
sorry for betraying trust.
sorry for not being as good as kakak.
sorry for not being as brilliant as wani.
sorry for just being an adik.


for u my creator,
i'm sorry for myself.

hello

since i hardly post nowadays,these are some updates:

i eat a lot since i arrived home.
i enjoyed my raya day.
i shopped.
i failed.
i study a bit at home.
i havent see my friends.
i miss my mmu friends.
i think i hurt a lots of ppl in mmu in the past few weeks.
i am sellfish at times.
i want to buy the jacket i saw in jusco melaka.
i hope pyramid's jusco sell it.
i went to midnite movie with sara.
i watched enchanted and think it was just okay.
i went to midnite movie with them.
i watched golden compass and think it was a bullshit.
i went to midnite supper with fatin,min,zora n irshad.
i want to eat more.
i watch hafiz's video everyday since i got the video.
i joined a treasure hunt.
i get to know some new foreigners which was osama and murad.
i promise to study atleast abit tomorrow.
i think i'm happy.
i love irshad khairi johari so very much.:)
i loike roti pisang d way u do.i loike d mamak place we lepak for hours at midnite.
i think hafiz realise my existance now.
i hope things wont be that bad for syam and batch.
i am praying.
i am thinking of moving out to a new room.soon.
i slept at fatin's for 2 nights.
i am getting lazy eachday.
i need something or rather someone to push me.
i need somone but i dont say it must be a boy.
i dont need a boy indeed.
i think that is all for now.


thank u readers.
love.

another fuck up saturday in melaka

lasagna.pasta : assalamualaikum

biskut.milo : wslm.mak tgh buat ape?

lasagna.pasta : ktorg baru lps mkn.dah lunch ke?

biskut.milo : tgh lunch..

lasgna.pasta : mkn ape?

biskut.milo : twiggies

lasagna.pasta : twiggies tu ape?

biskut.milo : roti

lasagna.pasta : ha roti je??

thank you for appearing

"i'm afraid of everythings happening around me.what i need is just the thought of having you.i dont need you to say or do anything.with that thought,i survive well.

even in just milisecond u appear,

even if u said ambigous n uncertain words

even u always left me out

even i always waited for u in tears,

i smiled.

and that is what counts.

i smiled."

made by-aliakama

deklarasi

celabration

kim's bday

mereka sy suke

so much to do so little time

i'll be very busy for the following week. pls dont say any words about getting home or any words relating to it.this includes:

bus,bus tickets,melaka central,delecious food.

yes. delecious food made me wanna go back.tp xboleh!!i have 2 prepare 4 my midterm,assignment and presentation. i dont have much money left.and i want to eat proper food. sick of nasi paprik,tomyam and all those food here.i DESIRE and NEED to eat the food in PAN'S BAKERY.omg.and i miss eating KENNY with my favourite-all-time 3 side dish wish is always to be the savoury rice,coleslaw and macaroni and cheese.YUMMIEH.i have 3 days of classes at 8am.i seldom play basketball at night.after class i have meetings.MIDNIGHT is the only time i have 4 myself and i chat :):) i miss all the people in subang.i miss subang itself.and most of all,i miss YOU.

teenagers i am

d tot distracted me a lil more less. to the world,

.i . am . not . a . kid . anymore.

i remember ali,who happened 2 be one of amzar's fren told me dat i behave like a kid.he told me,xmatang la n watsoeva.i hated him with all my heart and still am now. all my frens know dat ali and i cant stand 2 face eachother not even a second without fighting.i HATE him.so people,lets get diz straight.

STOP calling me a KID

Everyone does.this includes my own mom,my kakak,adik,aunty,cousins and frens.they run all around the world telling everyone when i 1st got my driving license.thier question was,'sampai ke adik nak bwk kete?' pfft.when i,me,myself and i drive 2 my cousins house in putra they were like,so terkejut and claim it to be as 'the most berani thing a KID would have done'

hello ppl,i'm mattured enough to atleast think about my own life.so if u think i am kid,u r a kid 2.u noe y? bcause i said so. a kid noe whose their fren n whose not.i'm crapping because i like 2 crap.so dont even bother y i post diz.especially 2 my cousins and my adik,even if u call me ADIK,doesnt mean u can treat me as an adik.i am a big sis.and 4 god sake,i'm 18.18 means,teenager.get wat i mean here? see. i am a good girl.haha.so BACK OFF.

malicious

i'm cutting short this survey.enjoy.

[4]wat it takes 4 u 2 fall in love?

ok.i dunno if i rilly have a crush on him rite now.i just feel it now.as everyone noes,i'm not dat kind of ppl who will have a crush on a guy in d 1st sight.i'm not d type of prsn who love market ppl.yelah,4 sure a good looking guy will atrract my attention n ofcoz 4 some reason,i'll stalk.i am a person who will love someone not in our 1st meet but in a million meetings.i'm not complex.u may ask all my ex-es.a guy dat really can caught my eyes and heart is d one who impress me with his personality.i'm not fussy.i dont mind if hes from kpg or any parit buntar or batu gajah or wateva a place might have be given a name with.when i fall in love,i just cant tell why.its d spark i saw in him and everything dat no one else can feels but me.i hated ku when i 1st step in d class.after going out with him and knowing him a lil bit less,i falled into him.and now,currently i dunno y i fall into a person whom i hardly know,whom i hardly see.this is so not me.dat is y i'm confuse.oh god.i'm starting to like him so much.and i dont even know what to do.i like him but i'm too scared to felt this way.

[05] Do you believe that everyone hasa soul-mate?

maybe.i'm not sure



[06] Whats your current relationship problem?

missing someone badly



[07] Have you ever had your heartbroken?

several times.but i've moved on



[08] Your thoughts of longdistancerelationships?

sweet but hard.worth trying tho.



[09] Have you ever seen a friend more than a friend?

i think no



[10] Do you believe thestatement, "Once a cheateralways a cheater"?

no



[1 1] How many kids do you want tohave?

i dunno



[1 2] what is/are your favoritecolours?

white /pink



[14] Do you believe you truly onlylove once?

no



[15] Imagine you're 79 & your spousejust died,would you get re-marry?

no i wont



[16] At what age did you startnoticing the oppositesex?

6yrs



[17] What song do you want played atyour wedding?

paramore :P



[18] Do you love anyone ritenow?

yah.maybe.no.i dunno.

its a girl thing

she is the 2nd child.being the middle child,means being stuck between the eldest and the youngest.it makes her grown up as a competitive person.but even with her competitive streak,she is often much more flexsible about life because she has always had to fix in with the routine of the first born.it makes her diplomatic and social,because she has always had to get on with everyone.maybe this is why she can be compatible with any type of person in a new place.

behind this big headed-arrogant-stuborn-confident-hot tempered teenage girl is a girl who wants a friend .a true friend.a girl who has learned to be terrified of being in a place with no friends and a lots of stranger.

she has basierah for all her need.she is having the serious hard time in her stage of life,and need serious advice.batch is not 'just friend' .batch is confidantes and mentors and teachers and students all rolled into one.

-the end-

p/s-i took that picture and edited it myself.dat girl in the picture,its me.

harsh days

i'm sitting here all by myself after crying all day long. i dont wanna talk bout it. to mdm wahida whom i noe wont read this blog,i thank you 4 being my
lecturer for about 4 month. its just profesionality that i demand and apperentely,i didnt get. its the consideration i desire.but then,i didnt get it.
for all the personal things between u and me that clearly effected my result,i thanked you for all.
its bad to talk bad about teachers and lecturers.so,i wont talk bad anymore.not in this whole long life.not anymore.saya redha mdm.

to mak and ayah and kakak,
i dunno how to tell u all about it.its a big thing.i've been crying all day not because of me,but because of u three.
the ppl who care most bout my achievement. for all i know,i've done good enough in my mid term and clearly,it was a good start.
i started from scratch.recovering from my spm-result-sadness,i work hard when i came 2 mmu. i've proven to them all that i really want to do this,
which is the law thing.although i have been forced to study accounting and COMPUTER APPLICATION.its the law subject that counts.but apperently,i passed accountings
with flying colours and i passed comp apps with 32/50 which i think is OK for a person who hated comp apps so much.atleast,i've proven dat i did a lots of works in reading
and studies.

mak and ayah appericiated my work and i thank all of u for all the compliment.its not the compliment or any gifts i wanted.its just the satisfaction
of hearing those words and knowing that u all were happy.i know u guys worried so much when u first sent me here,2 mmu.which parents doesnt? it is a private institution
which u noe,the kind of all the kaya2 ppl who dont want 2 study,study in.atleast,i've builded up ur trust in sending me here aftr that kind of result.after all,mmu is not DAT bad in studies.
in fact,my pl03/pl04 class have all the pandai2 ppl.all the chinese are the bomb,i tell u.the BOMB.majority of our classmates gets atleast 5 a's for spm.most of the chinese are the straight a's student.
the chinese are anti-govermen-ing.that is y they chosed doing law in mmu instead of iptaS.they got looks,they got money and they got brain! jo is my personal favourite idol.oh and,david.hehe.
i dunno what am i doing here.it looks like convincing ppl.yeah,it is trying to convince,maybe.
w-h-a-t-e-v-a.

bye

hari raya

maka dgn ini,daku akan mula berblog tentang raya yakni raya yg kedua dahulu.kerana camera dibawah dan sgt malas utk ambil.gmbr2 raya pertama semua ada dibwh.

raya kedua
lokasi-rumahku
masa-tdk di

kanak-kanak:assalamualaikum!!! assalamualaikum!!!

wani:dik! ade org nak raya.

alia:pggl je ah.best pe

wani: dik,kwn wani ah!!

alia:pggl ah masuk

di dapur
makcik dan emak sedang sibuk memasak kerana ptg nnt mummy n family,maklung n family,titi n family n kaknyah n family nak dtg.jadi,daku tidak sanggup membebani mereka lagi.maka..

makcik:dik,nak buat air ape ye?

alia:xpelah cik.biar adik buat.

makcik:oklah

alia:nak gune jug mane cik?

makcik:gune yg besar lah.nnt mummy nak dtg.buat semua terus

adik.xnak ah! adik buat nnt xsdp.buat utk bdk2 ni boleh la.

makcik:yelah.amik yg kecik kat atas tu

setibanya di depan,daku jamu kanak2 dgn air oren itu.beberapa minit kemudian,

kanak1: wani mana kak?

alia:die naik atas jap.nape? (igtkan mereka mahu ke toilet)

kanak2:ktorg xminum air oren kak.kasi air masak boleh?

alia:oh.ok2

daku pon pergi ke dapur dan tergelak bagai nak rak bersama maid ku,yakni makcik.

alia:chey2 budak2 tu..xminum air oren.ckp je lah air tu manis.hahahahah

makcik:manis sgt dik!!!

hahahahahah.maka,kesimpulannya..daku mmg lah tiada bakat di dapur.walaupon se-jug air oren.dont try me.hahahahahahahaha.wani dan emak juga tergelak selepas memarahi ku kerana tidak tahu membuat kerja semudah itu dan kelihatan agak memalukan didepan kanak2 itu.kanak2 itu adalah sgt sopan,jika telah lahir dan dibesarkan sebagai seorang MELAYU,melayu jugalah mereka.kita dididik utk berckp dgn berkias,yakni kononya sopan.hahahaha.daku dan air oren yg manis itu..haih..hari raya..hari raya...:P

surveys

hahahah.i wont eva post a surveys in my fs.so,i'll do it here.hello.org pon nk try ok.hahah




If your doctor told you TODAY thatyou were pregnant, what would you say?
hahah.doktor ni luculah


Would you move to another state orcountry to be with the one you love?
i rather die than live witout him...hahah.hows that?

Which one of your friends do youthink would make the best doctor?
i think its shahira.and syahirah,my kakak

Are you afraid of falling in love?
no! i'm not.why should we? ok2.some ppl might say they r afraid of getting hurt.but think it simple this way-u still play sports when u actually noe the posibilty of getting hurt is like,so high kan?
so,the risk is there.just try ur luck lah kan babe.:)

Is there someone who pops into yourmind at random times?
yes,ofcourse.

Would you stop talking to yourfriends because you hooked up with anew person?
depends.hahah.bpk jahat.no lah.i wont.try me.

When was the last time you flew ina plane?
em.last year.chup.or is it diz year? xigt.dat indon,bandung's journey.where i met amirul asyraf..hehe

What did the last text message yousent say?
'ok.afta zohor'-min

What features do you find mostattractive in the opposite sex?
dulu,i suke tgk thier eyes.but now,as i'm growing 18 i usually stalk their body.hahah.hot body counts.

What is a goal you would like toaccomplish in the near future?
duhhh...nak good result 4 my finals.

How many kids do you want to have?
2

Would you make a good parent?
i certainly will.hahaha.geli ok.

Honestly, what's on your mind rightnow?
pukul berapa nak pegi library? bila nak start study?

Shoe size?
4/5

Best place to eat?
johnys.

Favorite animal?
I HATE ANIMALS.

Who knows you the best?
siti aliah :P

Do you miss someone today?
yes! very!

Last person to lay in your bed?
M

Last person to see you cry?
M

the last person who im u
hari

last talk to the fon
shera

who do u sit in class?
M.smlm min.m xdtg class.

who is ur favourite techer?
kalau kat mmu,its miss chin:)

where and when do u last take ua car ride?
last monday nght.it was naufal and min's bday.naufal drive us to jusco n we had our meal-after-dinner in secret recipe.pastu mkn lagi kat pantai klebang.we went out at 8 and came back 2 mmu aroun 1 am.it was an EXITING journey 2 remeber.we eat,stalk,laugh like mad,eat again,scream in d car like no one will hear us,sing aerosmith's song,sing lagu raya in secret recipe,watch live porn.seeeeriusly.HAHA.we had a great laugh.sgt best.sgt2 sgt best!

what was the last thing u ate?
dua benjo cheese kat 'burger techno' hehe

what do u like about school?
everything except 4 the classes.

what are you wearing on ur feet?
my brain.hahah.dlm bilik dongs.nk pki ape.i'm wearing my brain on my feet sounds gila cool.agaga

what is the last wovie u watched?
hairspray.gile tah fuck up.benci mahkota parade!!!!!

why do u have to got to school?
because everyone does

In two words, explain yesterday hari rabu

Who made u smile today? havent smile yet

What were u doing this morning at 8? sleeping

Something that happened to u in1985?

i was playing around in heaven when i saw 1 guy that really cought my eyes.i cant stop staring at him.suddenly,he approach me and he said he wanted 2 know me better.i was so happy.we became friends.and after a long while,he said that he had fall in love with me since the 1st day he saw me.i was surprised.seriously i did. i nerver thought he will ever feel the same way.n yah,that is wat happened in 1985.long story tho.

Last thing someone else said to you? u nak keluar g mane2 ke pasni?

What was ur answer?
ha ah.nak gi library

Your current To-do list?

presentation

Where is ur best friend right now?
in my heart

What made you sad today? late msg reply

What can make you happy? happy meal.haha.bodoh

Beauty is beast's girlfren.

If someone you love forgets youand think your're distrubing tohim/her then how would you feel?

it will certainly hurt me.tp after a long while,i will certainly hate that person and start cursing.like..MAY U BURN IN HELL U SICK HORIBLE BASTARD.like that.

/////survey is fun/////

.reminder.

websitea

presentation mlha

presentation gpl

accounts assignmenta

apoinment with AA

meet mdm aiza ASAP

smart carda

pay feesa

then only i can start..

STUDY

::missing::

i always needed time on my own.i neve tot i'd need u when i cry.:(
and d days feel like YEARS when i'm alone.when u walk away i count d steps dat u take..
DO U SEE HOW MUCH I NEED U RITE NOW..

::when::u're::gone::

the pieces of my heart r missing u.
the face i came 2 noe is missing 2.
the words i NEED 2 hear 2 always get me tru d day..
and make it okay
i MISS YOU

the end

enough is just enough.
i wont burden my mind,body n soul just 2 love him.
the best part of the day is,i think LOVE is just right
infront of me but i just didnt see it all this years.
maybe i'm just being 2 scared 2 admit that the love,is there.
apa2 pon,my final dah dkt.dis is a small thing dat i should ignore 4 a while.
ala dah bertahun2 i ignore that feeling 2wrds him.
sorry guys,klu diz post sounds a bit confusing.
i dunno y ami writing this.
i'm here in melaka after a so not long holiday in subang.
its fun 2have more ppl in sbg at times.
badot,pele,faiz,annis,maliq.
they r not sbg-ianz ppl but they love sbg d way all of us did.
i'll sure miss sbg after diz
its not even 1day here in melaka,but i already miss subang.
especially the ppl there.
melaka is forever a no-no place 4 me.
i just hope n pray hard 2 god dat i;ll survive this week,n the following week n the weeks later n all those weeks coming.
god noes how much i suffer here.
its torturing my mental each n everyday.
ergh.stop craping al.better get going 2 class.
kwn2,doakan kt ok2 diz week.hari isnin smpi rabu adalh penentu minggu kt kat mmu.
lps rabu,hari khamis akan kelihatan tenang semula.isnih smpi rabu selalunya hari plg susah skali kat cni.doakan kt ae! lurve2~

SHUT

i just believe so much...he really helped me over the past few weeks.i used to hate this place.i used 2 hate all the things and all the ppl here.but he taught me so much.he taught me that its not the job of this place to make me feel happy.its not MMU's fault that i dont feel i fit in.it doesnt matter where u are in the world because its about where u r up here.its about the other world i inhabit.the world of DREAM,HOPE,IMAGINATION N MEMORIES.