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dear my heart beat,

probably this sounds like the rants and race of the love-sick-lunatic.well,it isnt easy to put to words what i feel,but here's my best shot. just to think about it,scares me.how did u do it? how do u make me so incredibly crazy? i guess dat sounds really weird,but i dont know.i'm not the easiest person to understand.i knew my feelings about it were strong, way beyond what i was willing to admit to myslef.just didnt realise it was to strong.

i have no idea if this is right or wrong.for me loving does not mean NEEDING them,it meant WANTING them.sometimes i see myslef hoping.its just a foolish hope dat i know will never come true.and i pray,it will fade away.as for now, i function between maybe and maybe not.but dat set me thingking...does hope and expectation give the same definition?

And i found myself saying:NO

i am usually ok.but at times(especially today) it just become to much to bear.i just have to blog,to share that sacred part of my inner,the thought that i think everyone has but doesnt always say.i know dat pride and ego gets in the way in our relationship.at this time of life,we are surrounded by possibilities of everything,and distract from other ppl,which i know have come between us.

now i sounds so not like gay.
heh.
just feel like writing and this is what happened.
i am no mood for love.

thank u.