Why Cheat?

When people around are splitting up from their significant others, I tend to wonder why it happened and where did it went wrong. Bukan nak sibuk sibuk atau busy body ke apa ke. It is just human nature yang penuh dengan curiosity. Konon. Sebenarnya the one thing that bothers me so much is when people cheat. Be it a women or men. People around us cheat. Take note that this post has no means in doing any personal attack to anyone. It is just a thought that I have in this mind. No personal attack. No particular person :)

Why cheat in the first place? If you fall in love with another person or if you feel like fooling around with someone else, then leave. BUT. That statement is not to be understood to mean that ‘cheating is okay’. Just tell your current gf/bf that you wanna split or give them that ‘kita tak sehaluan’ phrase. Oh ya2 or another one; ‘it’s not you, it’s me’ famous phrase. See, tak susah kan. Splitting is okay (or maybe it’s not but who cares), just tell and leave.

I am definitely not advocating for cheating to be ‘legalised’. At the same time I am also not against those who would want to have their life back on track with someone new. If there is no such haluan and what not, then pergilah cari haluan baru. Just do it the right way. The problem with us, in the society, bak kata orang melayu, suka buat ‘scandal’ , cari ‘scandal’ and be with a ‘scandal’. Scandal make cheating sounds okay nowadays. ‘Scandal’ word itself dah diguna dengan salah. Inikan pula konsep.

Being unfaithful is a crime. Being unfaithful is being in any kind of relationship that involves emotional and (especially) physical relationship. Those flirtatious messages, comments or cyber affairs constitute to cheating. I wonder when a person cheats, does he/she not think about the consequences that they might have to face? There’s a name of it. What is it called again? Oh ye. Karma. Bayangkan if you cheated on your current gf/bf with another men/women and the next thing you know, TUVV that men/women flirt with someone else pula. Kan ke tak best tu.

What I can tell by looking at people around is, they wanna have the best of both world. That is why they don’t leave. They tend to stay and cheat. It is WRONG to stay. To have the pity thought of leaving the current bf/gf is WRONG. To stay because you have no heart to leave them is WRONG. Staying because you cannot bare the feeling of hurting is FREAKING WRONG and bloody sell fish. In any way, you will definitely hurt an innocent feeling. So why bother. If you really care in the first place, you won’t even have eyes glued on other people.

Bottom line, it is important to be honest. Even if being honest means hurting them. Everyone has the right to be treated fairly. I am for one, very grateful to be in a relationship with a guy that offers me love that no one could ever give. Jodoh, ajal, pertemuan, semua ditangan Allah. The best that we can do is to pray for the best, for us and for our significant others. I better stop now for I am a girl who knows not much about being in a perfect fairy-tale relationship. We don’t even have that kind of relationship. We just do it our way. J

What Comes Next

Finally, updates!

Let's look back to what I've been doing for the pass one month. For the record, I am currently doing my practical in a Law firm for 3 month. 1 month down. Eight more weeks to go. When I thought that time will fly fast without me even noticing it, I was wrong. It actually moves really slow. Slow is an understatement. It moves sl-freaking-ow.

Oh cut the crap and stop complaining already. After all, working life is not that bad. Yeeee lah tu. Who am I to kid. I wanna go back to Melaka. Time, please move faster than you have ever been.

You know, having conversation with the road everyday makes Aliah Kama a pathetic person . Every morning, it will be just me, my car, Gotcha Call and the road. A usual route that usually takes me around 15 minutes to Subang Jaya is always pack with cars every single day during rush hour. I will only reach work after 45minutes of driving.

After a month of travelling to work and having an intimate relationship with the road, I came down to one conclusion that every single stereotype about being a grown up is pretty much nicer than being a student is totally wrong. It is totally ridiculously wrong lah. Growing up is one thing. Trying to live as one is another thing.

Kadang kadang tu, we are too comfortable with what we have got in life. We are too comfortable to even notice that what comes next will not actually fall into place. The next thing we know, things does not go the way we planned. That is when we start to blame on anything else in the world but ourself. That is how many people function. Blaming things and come out with excuses. At least that is how I function.

Not. Good. Not. Good.

Today, I function between yes, no or maybe. What comes next. In the next 2 years 1 year or 3 years. I don't really know. Thinking about it je pun dah scare the world out of me. What I do know is, I'll try my level best to shape 'what comes next' today. I wanna use this 3 month opportunity to look around and learn about life.For those who have been watching One Tree Hill season 8, by now, you will most probably know that I am very much influenced by that movie already.

Tiba tiba je One tree Hill.

Anyways, back to reality, what I am trying to say in this post is, even if our way gets too dark or too painful, keep going. Keep doing the right thing. And InsyaAllah, we'll be okay. Note to self and the others, don't be afraid to grow up. Siti Aliah, Dont, be afraid anymore.

Messrs Zaini Mazlan

Pindah

Over the course of my life I've spent my entire life growing around Subang Indah and Subang Jaya. Pendek kata, Subang Jaya and my whole life resolve around Subang and the people in it. Although I've spent some point in my life living away from Subang, for instance,I lived in Muar for 1 year and Melaka for about 4 years now, I've always felt incomplete without Subang.

Anyway, this is not another tear jerking sappy post about missing Subang and what not. This post is actually about an important announcement I am about to make. Soooo ready or not, here it goes. 25th December 2010 will be a remarkable date for the entire family. After spending our whole life in Subang Indah, we are finally moving out from that place we love.

We are moving out. Yes we are. Time not to be in denial anymore Aliah. This will definitely be another sobby post of mine. Sorry readers. I can't type about leaving home without feeling bad about it. I just can't. Even if the new home will be just 20 minutes away from Subang Jaya, the fact of leaving the place where the entire memories were made in, is very much depressing.

Our new home is in Laman Permai, Subang Bestari,Shah Alam. To the people in Subang, especially my dear close friends and neighbors I am sorry for not telling you guys earlier about this. Wanted to blog about it earlier but due to time constraint, I ended up posting this one day before the day itself. Sorry ya kawan kawan. If you guys are interested in helping or anything on this Saturday or even if you just wanna come and visit the new house, text me and I SWEAR I'LL REPLY.

I'm pretty sure this picture won't help. so, text je.

What makes people depress when they have to move out is that one thing they are going to left behind. The memories. It has been more than 15years. I remember the day Mak gave birth to Wani. I woke up and saw nobody at home except for Kak Yah (our maid) and me. I remember I was obsessed with that big baby. When she grew about 3 years older, I like to run and play everywhere in the house with her until one day I pulled her so fast that she knocked herself on the floor and broke her teeth into half. You know, one particular teeth into half. Tragedi oktober.

And she live her next few years with that teeth. Nasib baik ada gigi baru. Phew aliah.

kakak if you happen to read this, I remember when we were so much younger, we set up the plastic pool in our bathroom and we invented our very own Sunway Lagoon which was called, SHALIA LAGOON. We even invented a song for it. Siap gaya lagu untuk promotion. It was totally ridiculous and we grew up without wanting to talk about it at all. Kalau tercakap terus rasa malu. Sebab ape ntah nanti disgrace ourself ke ape ntah. Tapi sekarang, come to think of it, it will definitely be one of my favorite childhood memory with you, kak.

The entire area of PJS 10 Subang Indah will be dreadfully missed. To the neighbors; Fana, Hanis, Ashiela, Adiela, Nina, Izzah, I truly appreciate the memories we've made together. I grew up with these people and they are my favorite childhood friend. Kene kejar anjing, main basikal,usha orang dekat padang,pergi pasar malam. Macam macam lah. The silly thing we did when we were younger. Time flies. Thinking back about those things we had make me smile. If you guys happened to read this, just to let you know, I miss each and everyone of you so much ;')

Those were the days I've spent at home. My whole entire life. Those days when I have my friends around for sleepovers. Those days when I grew up from tadika until my university life. Those days when the entire family was at home. Those days when kakak was not around. Those days when we had our ups and downs in the family. Those days filled with scream and laughter. Those were the days we will treasured. To the new family whom has bought the house, we wish you a prosperity life ahead

Another depressing 'for sale' picture I saw in google image.

p/s ;No more orang Subang lepas ni. Orang Shah Alam pula :(
Cheers, Annis Natalia Abdul Hamed :p

I am alive. Barely.

I'm not sure if anyone still check on this page. If you are, then you missed out on doing something more valuable with your time than coming here to check on things. The fact that people read my grammatically challenged blog is so ridiculously incredible, that I sometimes can't even get my head around it.

Anyways, I welcomed the new followers to 'a place called here'. But seriously, I can't guarantee any new post to the readers. I'm not sure how much I will be posting here, but it will be very rarely done. I'm not quitting, just not posting as much.

Apa apa pun, selamat datang dan terima kasih.

Bye.

Cewah takdelah bye. Alang alang dah menulis, I can't just stop there. Ok so here goes nothing. Hello mellow readers and friends. It has been a freaking long while kan. I miss most of you. Especially those people that I haven't seen for ages. Those people in CJ, Kuantan dan semuanya and of course, Subang itself.

Since it is Raya and final is approaching VERY soon, I would like to wish everyone a very Happy Aidilfitri, maaf zahir dan batin. Lets us just forgive and forget and start the new book, whatever book it is. Speaking of which, read books. law books. aydfyscvsacj. Good Luck to fellow classmates and MMUians for this upcoming final exam.

Doakan ya kawan-kawan.

So i guess, after 5 months, these are, UPDATES!

Meet my other half

Some things are better to be left unsaid and undone. And not to mention, unpublished. But this, is for the people who are staying miles away from me. For the people who cares. Its been a while now since i last met most of you. But no worries you people will always and forever be a part of my heart. Even if the other part is now belong to this awesome creature :,)

Endless

I'm in a good place right now, albeit just a bit tired. Workloads and stuffs. But just so you know, I am 20 now, feeling neither old nor young, neither being too excited nor in a deep depression. Above all, I am happy. And it feels like it's taken me forever to get here. At one point I forgot that I was stronger than that. But I've moved on, lesson learnt. I'm glad I have make my own happiness and, nobody takes those control for me. Or rather, I don't let them anymore. I was down there telling myself Allah has better plans. And now, this plan, You had from the very beginning , is indeed, beautiful. I don't really mind spending my whole life waiting for it.

I'm delightful returning to this place with priorities and commitments.

And love.

For eternity,InsyaAllah.

:)

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Moskuito

Don't worry. The spelling is indeed correct in every sense a motorbike would ever possibly be spelled. a motorbike? motorbike. Did I just typed A-MOTOR-bloody-BIKE? vrghjk haha drama. looking back at Basirah's latest post, it gave me the excitement to post this from day one. But it was only today, when I get this chance to sit back and compose a post. kudos evening classes.

Before that. Looking back at my previous post, I found out, to my amusement, everything was posted in a very very VERY serious way. In a more emotionally written way I'd say. SHIAT. I AM GETTING OLDER. and wiser wtf. write good good proper proper emo emo. what lerr. It doesnt sounds good anymore. To look back at my own blog pun make me feels like I'm 21 already. (yes, belum, jgn persoalkan)

No lah actually the only time I wrote things was when I would be content enough to express my thoughts and put things into perspective. So it explains the emotional and seriousness of my latest post kan. Dont worry at times like this, if I got time, I'll write simple things. Simple in the sense of writing about my daily life, what happened in it and not just merely a tq notes :p:p Why am i explaining this craps again?

So,anyway, yes. Moskuito. Fatin actually brought back her motorbike to melaka! That was when the excitement began weepedoo! And and it is called, moskuito! with the wrong spelling wtf. no lah actually it was us, no no it was me whom actually thought that the motorbike was named after a nyamuk. when actually it was obviously not because it doesnt even look like a bloody nyamuk for all I know.

For those in the know, I've been rempit-ing in Melaka for one week now.

Little that I know that merempit during rainy days can be freaking freezing.

And beyond words, its fun gila!

Ok u can now stop imagining how I wore the helmet without knowing how exactly to put it on my head and went to patrol station to buy THAT MUCH of fuel as if we were buying for a car and ended up passing the pump to the other guy lining up behind us just because our bike's tank was already full and playing around with the bike by leaning rempit style because no one was watching when actually there were. Just, dont, imagine it.

Ok Fatin's bike is not even blue. But I googled Moskuito and this picture gave me the effects of TADAAAA . So yeah people, tadaaa! Moskuito!

I'm kinda afraid of motorbikes when I was younger. But then, after a while, especially since the day Ann became my housemate (she owned a motorbike juga) I thought, owh what the hell. Since everyone is using it, and there's absolutely no possible excuse to be afraid, I might as well make the most out of it and enjoy it. Thanks to Fatin, the both of us have became famous in a blink of an eye by riding Moskuito. we are now the next big THANG yaw in Bukit Beruang.

Haha after the last paragraph I typed i realized how people will read this in the most annoying way.

Sebab tak pernah nampak orang jakun sgt dengan motor.

Its not jakun lah. Its, tah. haha jakunlah kot.

Bye!

Desa Tercinta 2010

• WARNING : THIS IS GOING TO BE A LONG POST. JANGAN COMPLAIN.

3 months ago, I’ve been given a big responsibility by people. Without knowing how and what was it all about, I said yes. I’ve been persuaded by people around and in the thought of giving myself such a challenge, I took the risk. It was one of the biggest responsibilities that I could ever imagine to receive. It was big, for a new comer like me, at least.

I remember receiving a file full of past years events by Budin whom wanted me to learnt about Desa Tercinta so much before handling such business. That time, I told myself that, this is it. It took me such a while to reconsider my decision. I consulted so many people around and as expected, no one gave negative response. So I stayed.

When I think I can’t go on anymore because it gets too tiring, too painful, too far away, when I thought it is not within my ability ,and then I find myself saying, don’t ever EVER give up. I thank my soul for not giving up. Throughout those days, I made mistakes, made some more mistakes, but the best part I guess is taking a step to learn from all the mistakes and move on.

It’s an experience of a lifetime. To be given such a huge trust, is a big something for aliah kama. To cut things short, I’ll just start with my thank you notes. Even if it just for three month, I’ve been dealing with so many people, including people in Terengganu and Malacca itself. I am lucky enough to be constantly surrounded by people in my life who will remind me not to give up. And, these, are my tq notes.

To Hafizuddin Remli and everyone involved in short listing the post, I thank you for opening the door for me and for bringing out the best in me. Thank you for starting this whole new thing for me.

To Anis, Ijad, Sal, Wani, Puteri Sarah, Ekyn, Siti Sarah, Alif, Amir Hanif, Amiroso, Daniel, Abil, Bob you guys are my dream team. Thank you so much for supporting a newcomer like me, for always being there for the activity division both in Malacca and Terengganu. People like them; they never underestimate me despite whatever people said. To be having people like you guys to work with is such an honoured for me. Special thanks to Miss Director,Anis Syazwanis for believing in me more than anyone could ever believe. Thank you for being not just a director for us but a friend, a sister, a confidant and a believer. And every second of where I will sometimes lose my hope, I thanked my coordinator, Ijad, for saying the right things and for making things uncomplicated. What makes me so grateful to be part of this team is to be with those people from day one, seeing them progress throughout the weeks. I saw them working endlessly. Together we unite, together we support each other and together we just make it happen. It’s as if it wasn’t really a task to be done but mainly a challenge that we were all in, as a team we worked with much joy and glory.

To Fateen Najlaa, Shahmi, Najmuddin, Abg Rezal, I couldn’t thank you enough for this. I might not be the best but the best that I can do is to have the best guidance from the best people like you guys. Thank you for the time, the guidance, the advice, the motivation. From the very beginning, these are the people whom without fail inspired me in their very own way. For Shahmi andFateen, no matter how bad i’ve been, how disappointing I’ve been, it is unbelievable how they never turn their backs on me. It feels good and safe to know that they never gave up on me no matter how disappointing I am. Terima kasih banyak-banyak.

To the most crucial division in DT’10, the Activity Division, this part is for you guys. Aizad, Najeed, Ummi, Alhamd, I am sorry for not being the best leader for you guys. Thank you for accepting me the way I am and thank you for understanding my ability throughout this whole journey. There are ups and downs during these experienced and I’m glad some of us stayed. However, despite all of that, the most important thing throughout this challenge would have been the experienced I had with the 4 of you. The laughter and the cry we shared. It was priceless and worthwhile. Thank you for every single thing. Thank you.

There are times when I look for support and many times, there will be those two lending their help, who just listen patiently, and who will offer a shoulder to cry on. Those two are Fatin Amanina Yazid and Atuffah Said. I have had times in my life, faced with such critical moments; it was relieving to have had such familiar faces, warm hearts, who made it possible for me to go on. These two supporting system, I couldn’t easily find in normal day street people, and I thank God for sending them both for me. To see the happiness on the faces of my loved one in Payang Kayu, is all that I yearn for. And I’m very lucky it goes both ways. I owe you guys BIG time.

To my family, friends from Subang Jaya and MMU, thank you so much for understanding. I am sorry for not being able to spend more times with you guys during this journey. Thank you for the support, love , care and thank you for just being there. Basirah, thank you for checking out on me every now and then. Thank you for helping me in every way, without complains. I promise I’ll make it up to each and every one of you as soon as possible. (This includes Irshad Khairi, Sudesh Kumar, Farah Aina, Maliq Fariz, Mimi, Shera etc2 .ps : jgn emo tak mention semua :p

To all the Participant of DT’10, thank you for giving me the chance to be a part of this. Special thanks to my performer, MCs, and everyone involved in making Malam Kebudayaan a success. To the facis and teachers , thank you so much for the comments and compliments for all the events I handled. To Sekolah Kebangsaan Sungai Buloh team, you guys are my precious. The first working facis under me, I hope you guys are satisfied with my work and my ability. Thank you for sharing one of the best moments in Terengganu with me. Above all, I thanked the most Gracious for the bond we’ve made. Let’s hope that the friendship we’ve made will last forever InsyaAllah.

To the villagers, other division commitee, Kak Miza, Encik Fazli, all the staffs, the photographer, drivers and everyone involved in DT'10 secara langsung atau tak langsung, the unmentioned names,I thank you for everything. semoga Allah membalas jasa anda semua dan memberkati usaha kita di sana. InsyaAllah. :)

The End

I'm sorry for not posting anything recently. Lets just skip that part and start with this post. Finally, 2009 has come to an end. Selalunya each year we tend to look back to our past and wonder if we had make it a good year or otherwise, we would look into our failure and achievement we've made throughout this whole year, count the people that have been involved in our life recently and begin to make new plans for years ahead. Its a different feeling altogether.

What a year it had been for me.

It wasn't a good start though. 2009 started with sorrow and very much depression from my side. And it took me a while to realize that I'm 20 enough for life and its really time for me to move stuffs aside and start to think about my life more seriously. Its not that I never had a thought about my life and things like that, but heck, yeah, I really haven't done it in a more serious way before I'd say . Not until my life turns 20 when I started to actually spend time to think about what do I really want in my life.

That was when I started to get involved with my own life. I started to get to know more people and started to do what I do best, in certain things. I'm glad most of the people I met this year had brought out the best in me and I'm glad I've been given opportunity that I couldn't possibly ask for more. I think this year I have found the pieces of my life that i broke the previous year. Last year I was broken and I was, everywhere. Finally I had put it altogether and found myself back.

Like everyone else, my life too, has been a roller coaster ride. It has been such a hectic month and its going to be more hectic for the next 31 days. and for the past couple of weeks I've been juggling my time with meetings, assignments, classes and exams. but put on the positive side of it. The hardest part for me is the time management. There are days when I wish like it was the end of the world. but most of the times, I like to take risk and look at the pretty sight of what am I doing recently. And so, I moved forward.

2009 is going to end hectically and this is not a perfect time for a sad news i'd say. I'm hoping for a happy ending. instead, one of the most hardest situation that I rather not think about is happening. Everyday since I received the news i would tell myself, that its okay, if it doesn't happen now, it will at some point in my life, if its meant to be, it will happen somehow. I swear I wasnt prepare for anything alike and I was down to tears when I heard what Basirah had to tell me.

Awak sedih tak bila kita dah takda kat subang nanti? sebab kita tau kita akan sangat sedih. selama ni kalau awak cuti kita terganggu sangat sebab nak jumpa. even pegi isi minyak dah make me happy enough. nanti bila dah jauh, sape nak layan awak yg gila mengada ni? gi teman kemana saja. janganlah lupa kita bila kita dah takde di sisi. dah start rindu awak pun sebenranya. cepatlah balik :(

- basirah

I cant put words in my feelings. I'm not going to lie because, at this point of situation, I am very glad that I've been busy. But the truth is, I am being delusional by avoiding myself to think about those things that have been in my mind this whole week. I am not having a good time with my life at this particular time of year. But I had enough support from people around me to keep me going on. But the one precious I had depended my whole life on, failed to keep me going, and she is moving out from Subang :(

I grew up in a surrounding that teaches me the feeling of wanting to love the whole world. That place teaches me the meaning of being appreciated by others. A place where I found those people I grew up with. Friendship is a big word there. It is indeed, the most powerful system that ever exist in Subang. What makes us different from other places is, we keep in touch. even Emak has friends gathering in USJ every year. You see,it isn't just friendship we've built there. It is much more than that.

One thing I can assure you, I will never forget each and everyone of you people that have been involved in my life. I wont because I couldn't. It's a long post indeed. To sum up, I would just want to say, this year, have been such a roller coaster ride. One minute I was there, all blinded by good things happening in my life. too blind to even notice that certain things was just not working out. And another second, I'm here. Wanting badly for Basirah to stay at least, when I ring u for breakfast.

Why do people have to be so mean?

People who insulted other people, say bad things to the others usually have very low self-esteem. This is why they put others down, so they can be above you, up on the pedestal or something. So that they can make them self feels good. delusional. That day, something happened in FB. Leaving insults comments are just plain uber stupid. I'm not mentioning names and stuffs here because oh yeah, thank God I still know the meaning of respect, unlike some people.

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lets name that someone, A.

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I have nothing against A and my friends wanted to give A second chance for some particular things. But A had pushed my line and that, I can't tolerate no more. You have zero respects towards people. I don't care whether YOU hate my friends or planning not to involve in their life and I don't care if 'you and me' are no more but saying stupid things which will bloody put our reputation down and make us sounds like a spoil brat who doesn't really care about our future and studies. You are gone.

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Are you THAT jealous of us? my God, find something or someone else to be obsessed with, like a dog perhaps or be delusional with people from YOUR place and YOUR society because our world are totally different. We have an open mind but you're not! We love to take pictures and adore our self with comments that we gave each other. SO SUE ME. SUE US. If its really disturbing, then get the hell out of the page, moron. don't make me start swearing because like Maliq, I, swears a lot, too.

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We have feelings, we have emotions, we have moral values and we think alike. So we are nothing but a total different people from you. My MMU friends hated A since last year when you know, things happened. They started to give chance to A back when I did. You know, it's annoying. It's irritating and it scares the shit out of me when you commented things like that to my friends. I'm scared that you people will fight. But I'm not afraid anymore. Because you are nothing but a big fat looser and hell yeah, YOU ARE FAT, I LIED.

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You are soooo lucky I don't mention your name here because I've seen blogs about you, about how good you are in breaking girl's heart and how good you are in saying the same things towards many people. For the past one year, I've been following your activities in cyberspace. And those people the 'victim', they read my blog and by now they knew that we are friends. I know too many things about too many people around you and they doesn't even realized. baguslah that way.

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Getting to know people like A, I believe I've changed into a better, patient and understanding person for the sake of , that A person. But no matter how much I've changed to be better, A has changed into worst. A lot of things have gone through my life and i just let it pass by. any regrets? yes. I wish A was a stranger so I could disengage. I thank god, I THANKED God again for letting me chose my own path. Damn it feels effing good that I actually have the guards to write things like this here. I'm outta here. bye

Saya Cuti!

When I was a kid, I remember I wanted to be a lawyer because I heard I can get big money by just lying and having verbal fight. But now, after facing all the 'real deal' finally I have,em, not much, but some clue of what's going to happen next. Its not, and never going to be as easy as my 7 years old dream anymore. Its not just a mere ambition right now. it's a real deal to deal with. Atleast now I know that life will be harder than one could ever imagine. Atleast now I will live as I believe.

If there's one thing I hate about life, it's the fact that we cant turn back time. If I have the chance to travel back trough time, I wanna go back to anywhere but 20's. I miss being 7 years old kid, go to school, eat the best nasi lemak on earth, come back home watch Maria Mercedes,eat lunch,sleep. The last thing to be worried about are results and bills. The only problem I had that time was, the laziness of going to school and doing homework. And sometimes, the 30sen my friend pinjam without any niat to pay back.

Stopp whining about how much you wanted to turn back time lah aliah oi. i, for one, will never get satisfied with my life. but if I am, the it is my life. being like this.

Anyway, its 2am, its holiday night, and I cant sleep. I will only fell sleepy at around 3 am and woke up around 11am, have brunch, watch TV, read novel, go online, go back to sleep. Its an everyday thing, really. Bored out of my shallow brain. I felt like going out but then I ended up worrying about moneyhh. While everyone else are busy preparing for finals, I am alll aloneee in Subang. By the time they starts their holiday, I'll be packing my bags back to Melaka. takpe, redha. lah sangat.

Talking about financial problem, I accidentally overused my money for the BBQ open house we had last Friday but, it was all worth it. Irshad,Sudesh,Lee,Hana,Zoe,Khoi,Faiz,Panda,Kak Haizum,Abg Rezal thank you for coming. these are the people under my '10-guest-list'. we have 5 people in the house so we have made a limitation to 10 friends per person so the total number of invitees are, 50 people. The open house was funn and we actually managed to gather all the MMU,kolej komuniti,UTeM,politeknik people under one roof. cool.

I don't write frequently nowadays so once i write, I'm hoping to put in writing about everything I have in my mind. Like this one particular thing. I don't care if people doesn't reply my text. But at times, it is vital important to reply when i asked questions. But i wont be upset just because you didn't reply my text. pffft. I don't do emo in 'cyberworld'. But there is an exception to that general rule of mine. Reply, when I say, reply. because that will be the breaking point of me, wanting you guys to answer. that simple.

eh tapi janganla lepas ni tak reply my regular text msg without the urging order asking you to reply pulak!

I just believe that silent treatment means, you're dead. That day when I Basirah didn't answer my calls, i freaked out like shit. I called her zillion times and called Maliq asking him the last time he talked to her. And then finally she called. The first thing I said was ' kt ingat awk mati!!!' and she laughed saying that, kalau dia mati mesti ayah dia bagitau and we ended up talking about mati. see. see. Sometimes it is really important to reply. I might sounds paranoid but, anything can happen, kan.

Ok lah, I would like to thank all the readers for praying for my finals.I wish you guys all the best for this upcoming exam. Somehow the beauty of sharing prayers touches my heart every time i read people's blogs. And isn't praying for each other what it's all about? after all, what is more important than how we all relate and connect? what is closer to hearts of a blogger than the readers , family and friends, kan? so everyone reading, i can assure you that my prayer, will always be with you guys. insyaAllah,dipermudah, amin. bye!

ini.

Two freaking more papers je lagiiii aliah kama. dont lah get sick sekarang. later ok badan. later. anyway, annis natalia, happy 20th birthday sayang. kita syg awak awak tau kan? i wish you all the joy and happines. peluk cium syg cinta love bite make out dari malaysia :DD And another quick post, you guys are invited to our BBQ open house this Friday, in BBP at 8pm till late. make urself available and please comeeee for the food yah. doakan. doakan for my finals, its never too late. And anyway,Selamat Hari Raya,Maaf Zahir Batin like seriously maaf. maafkan tau! what else. em. I'm gonna start blogging soon. real soon. wont promise anything for this post. so, see u guys another 1 month yeah bye ;p

Selepas Sebulan

I owe my readers an apology. For not updating and for updating craps, I'm sorry. It's not that I don't have things to update but i guess Gamma year is a total hectic .

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Well well. for the past few weeks, I've been busy with lots of works and I've met new people. This week will be the 3rd week of me, not coming back home to Subang. shiatness.

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See see i feel like i have lost the sense of blogging that i ony write three freaking line for one paragraph. oh dah 3rd line edy lets move on to next para wtf.

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Haha. what else can i write eh. oh my puasa. I'm waiting for THAT TIME of the month to come because,entah saja,i miss eating during the daylight kot. haha.

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Anyway, I'm still lost, dumbfounded and just absolutely blur with things happening around right now. especially mooting. we have like, few weeks before final exam and I'm....still lost, dumbfounded and just absolutely blur.

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So, i guess these are updates. for now. I'll try to make September more interesting by updating my blog cewah perasan padehal takde siapa peduli dan interested aku update ke tak. perasan. perasan.

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I'll leave this post with 6 things u may/may not know about me. just a simple homework for you to think about in case I become a lazy bum to update macam last month. haha masih perasan orang peduli pasal kehidupan kau,alia. dah tu dah. bye.

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6 things you really need to know about me :

1. i talk A LOT to the people i am comfortable with

2. i am HYPER sensitive

3. I'm VERY hot tempered. so you've been warned.

4. i, for one NEVER a racist

5. i DON'T trust people. there, i said it.

6. i HARDLY move on when I'm heartbroken.

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pi / ess : saya rindu korang. korang rindu saya?

Good Friends

One good thing about being the only single person in a circle of non-single friends is, we'll get all the attention. in the other words, they will sayang us more.sometimes, more than their other half ;p

Good friends like them will do whatever it takes to avoid us from talking to the ex lover we had dulu2. Kalau boleh, they want us to move on. they hate the idea of us, contacting the Mr ex-lover.

As a result, they'll try to divert our attention to the other person.
A person they chosed.
A person they think that are so much better from Mr ex-lover.

Soooo that was when the match-making scene took place. Good friends love to be matchmaker. Yang best, bukan sorang. Tapi ramai yang dorang try. Tau2 je aliahkama is single and available. for everyone. haisyo.

It is funny juga to see how determined they are. I know they care too much for me. you guys worried about me, being with the wrong person again. because the last time i did, i broke down like shit. Everyone witnessed it.

What I'm trying to say here is, I love the attention they gave and the intention they have for me. But i don't like the idea of match-making. If its going to happen, let it happen. Don't make it happen. Don't match make.

I'm not the kind of girl who flirt around with boys, no matter who it is. I'm not saying that we can't flirt and all. Can lah kot but flirt with class and dignity. But I'm not flirty. I'm the type of girl who will fall for a guy who i least expect to fall for. blerqghjjkj. Corny sial.

okay, whateverness. Move that aside, i will start dating again. someday.

In the mean time trust me when i say that I'm not ready for any other commitments. yet. And trust me when i say, i will not, i stress not, come back to him or do whatever bullshits anymore. chill ya kwn2. chill yaw. ;p


p/s : i still love u guys anyway. because i don't really know the other way :)

Kilang Kertas

I'm flattered by how you guys still read my blog. *tears*. This is the only medium we have to stay connected. But right now, at this moment, no lah actually everytime wtf, I've been a lard on blogging because... no internet in BBP, i'm too lazy to write, i've grown fat and no mood to blog. ah, pick one lah.

I am blogging because I'm free at this moment and the Internet connection in CITS is not so bad. usually it's just...wanna die. just to open facebook also takes ages. Somemore people sitting behind you will try by any chance they have to see what we are typing. damn tak selesa. YES YOU BEHIND ME I"M SO TALKING ABOUT YOU.

Anyways, updates updates. Seriously what to update pun since I have forgotten most of the things happened in the past and yes I knew Man Utd came to Malaysia don't have to rub it in my face. YOU THINK YOU SO COOL YOU WATCHED THE MATCH ISSIT?? ok lah very cool. one day I shall go to Old Traff itself. One day. One day.

This post is so random I want to write about things I have in my mind. First i just realized that my dad doesn't shit money. Nor does he pluck money form trees. so i better not spend too much money for things like, shit. Honestly, mana pergi doh duit! I don't, I stress don't, do much shopping. tau2 je habis! like seriously, why can't I manage my own freaking money??

Secondly, I have issues with some of the short forms people use in SMS. I hate it when I have to actually THINK what they meant. Contoh macam, the word "nanti". I have received few SMSes that shorten the word nanti to "T". wtf gila kan. short forms is another thing and how about people who type like shit long and spell things retarded-ly.

"aWk ceHat kEw? T kiTew JuMpeW YeRk. UaNg wiNduw kat aWk. JomS peGiw MaTiE BaBy jOoOOOm." (contoh)

Did your saliva just drool over your pacifier when you type that???weh annoying gila nak mati weh. Seriously ITS FREAKING MENTAL ABUSE!!!! Fatin i think you know who type like this kan. if anyone send me this type of SMS or comments or anything alike, I'll ignore you. I'm serious. even if you are my housemate.

Okay I'm done with this post. Going back to BBP. i know. pathetic riteee. for MMU students, to be sitting in CITS lab typing blog is somehow, pathetic. blrgeqhh.Right now, I'm off to sleep. no lah, actually off back home to study Mooting foooohhhhh I damn semangat I love Mooting I wanna marry my lecturer HAHA. diam lah bye.

Berus

1) H1N1

I'm sick. I'm very sick.

I heard ixora dah ada kes eh?

lets just pray I'm just having a normal fever.

2) Law Seminar

Federal Court Judge is coming to MMU.

I had my rehearsal

and I was sick.

3) Mooting

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4) Birthday

happy birthday maliq.

i was too busy with things sampai lambat wish.

and i was sick, remember? ;p

happy birthday kakak.

5) akhir kata

itu je lah. rindu semua. minggu ni, bangun dengan rasa paling tenang di dunia. despite the fact that my body is not in a very good condition.

Satu je kata2 buat siapa2 yang berkenaan, i promise i'll take care of myself and i'll listen more to people.

bye semua. bye bye.

Self Made kenduri + reunion

Surprise kenduri doa selamat for fatin's birthday was held on the 28th June. This is indeed my 2nd personal favourite self made event which i think was held smoothly. Terima kasih banyak2 kepada Farah Aina, Ida, Nabila, Lisa, Ween, Muni, Sudesh sebagai orang2 dibelakang tabir. Tetamu datang dalam 30 orang and alhamdulillah, there were enough food for everyone.

A big Thank you to Abang Hamdan for conducting bacaan yasin and solat isyak berjemaah. Hanif for bringing the yassin. kak haizum, kak alia, abang rezal, abg aizam. It was an honoured for us, to have u guys in our house. from th very bottom of my heart, i thank each and everyone of u for making things happened. kakak2, adik2, abang2, sebaya2, terima kasih!

not in picture : marcaroni ;p

And to you fatin, u gave me party and i gave u this. haha gila bunyi macam apa. no lah. i thought it will be something different sikit if i do it that way. and furthermore, elok untuk rumah baru kita. By gathering all the Acheh-ians, ULCians and close friends, this is the least i can do to repay all the love and care u gave to me all these while. :)

On the 4th of July, basirah + peeja and i organised a bbq party at Apartment BNM court. This is a small party we make to gather some of the SMSJians before everyone went back to their respective uni and college for their new semester. It was fun. sangat fun. sangat sangat sangat fun. sangat sangat sangat ok alia, they get it already.

Ok annoying gila letak sampai 3 gambar. facebookdotcom suda. kepada yang belum tag tu, tag2 lah ya. especially yang dslr tu. ehem. ehem. anyway, the party wasss ok dah diam sekarang juga. cathing up was a real fun. some of us havent seen each other since spm last paper kot. atleast now we know what everyone is doing. kan.

Contoh macam raje sekarang kat pahang, basirah kat johor, pja kat kelantan. maliq's doing accounting, annis nak kawen bulan depan, jaja dah nak berlakon. see, thats the problem that could happen when we get all the information all jumble up in our head at one night.

Akhir sekali, thank u korang semua sebab datang memeriahkan majlis. maybe we can do this as an anual event kan. kan. kan? a different oragniser and different place pula next year. so siapa2 nak volunteer, please do. :)

Both this event were last minute planned. and being a last minute planner, i'm glad i worked with the most two great instance planner themselves, basirah and pja. u guys did a great job. selamat sem baru semua. till we meet again! au revoir :)

Penghargaan

Wah. Lama sangat nak update tapi tak update2. I hope it is not too late for me to say thank you to those who've been involved in both the surprise party on 15th and 19th June. It was unexpected. Ok lah that 15th’s party, i expected things when fatin on the 14th night started to cook spaghetti at our kitchen. I asked and she said she wanted to bring me somewhere when the clock strikes 12. And the actual plan kononnya she said we’ll bring muni along.

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So there will be the 3 of us je. I was happy enough. 3 of us and spaghetti will be as perfect. Fatin suruh bersiap pakai tudung semua. Lepas bersiap i waited for fatin and there goes the ‘black out scene’ when everyone came into the house. I didn’t expect it will be THAT many people. Ye2 cakap 3 org lah kannnn. It was fun and i was touched, really. Tq farah aina for the pudding, sudesh for the ice cream fatin for making such an effort and to everyone else who came, tq so much.

Trust me when everyone rushed into our house I stare at the door all the time with my head saying, ‘please ada diorang, please ada diorang’. And sadly, friends from subang were not there. When maliq called to wish, i really thought it was some kind of trick ke apa ke. Sial, it wasn’t. Malu aku. i didn’t expect that basirah’s apology message saying ‘sorry we wasn’t there and we’ll MAKE IT UP TO U SOON’ tu will be THAT soon. When they said soon, they meant, the 19th. That one didn’t came up to my expectation at all.

Before that Gha, aien and raje , my mrsm muarians friend came to Melaka and stayed at my place for holiday. They came on Thursday and I brought them to places in Malacca. We picnicked, mandi air panas,main kejar2 dgn polis, went to jonker street and a lots of other typical activity for tourist (lah sangat) (except for the polis part which trust me, u don’t want to know and i rather not talk about it tqvm). We had sooo much fun and i didn’t expect that they too, were one of the ‘plans’.

It turned out to be that gha and fatin all these while berpakat dengan basirah to throw a surprise party for me on the Friday. Masa tu fatin balik kl and we were out for picnic. Fatin told me she's coming home that day. What i didn’t expect was she came back and brought the SJians along with her. Funny part, i didn’t even perasan maliq’s car which was parked so near from the place where I parked. Another fun fact was the fact that tiba2 aien nak balik kononnya nak semayang asar. And it was just 3pm that time. haha.

Not just that, i opened the main door of my house and TADAAAAA there they were. Maliq’s watching Wanita Hari Ini, mimi screaming and everyone else. sibuk sangat sampai tak perasan orang balik. Not until mimi screamed lah kot. Hahahhah hilarious gila babi and i was screaming OMG KORANG BUAT APA KAT SINI??? And then they asked me to redo the opening door scene and i did. Haha. What really touches my heart was the fact that my beloved MRSMians, SJians and MMUians all gathered under one roof. Terharuu.

hadiah terindah :)

not in picture : sudesh,sara,adli.

The effort to come all the way to malacca sangat2 dihargai. I know how much money have spent for all that. Especially you fatin and basirah. Thank u fatin, basirah and gha for planning such a party. To mimi, maliq, alynn, pija tq so much for coming. I miss u guys a lot since i didn’t spent too much time in Subang while I was there. And thank u so much to all for the video you sent especially to annis from UK, nina from Bandung and ofcourse, adiela,shera,naadira,tasnim. Your video really made my day. Thank u all for the love and effort. I love u guys so much.