since sume org tgh in a sad mood,jom post gmbr! lol.

instead of looking all good and noice,why not look silly?

the fatin's version

dah2.get back to normal

p/s-gimme back my smile.and my heart .sampai hati:(

bye you

finally,everything sudah come to an end.

Is it truly possible to be in love with two people at the same time? or is that just something people say when they're afraid to admit how they truly feel?enough to make you feel that you cant even choose to be with one .its a horrible fact as you could infact lose two people at the same time. how do you choose and let the other loved person down. its like choosing witch arm to chop off. you need them both for different things.

the only answer that i am trying to confirm is that its possibly the most heart rendering experience of anyone life. atleast,it is for me.we've known eachother for a very short term.but somehow,the memories distracted my daily life.i have a confession to make.i regreted each and everyday i've spent with you.the most ironic part, i regreted the fact that i've known u.its like,only two month.kalau xkenal pon xpe.xde la membebankan sgt.u gained my respect for being honest.thats for sure.

atleast dont ever think that i expected it to be not more than just frens.that was because deep inside i feel insecured.dont blame me for that.atleast dont make such an alasan.
i have trust issues and the biggest regret of all was putting my trust on u.and it wasnt just trust.it was love.watever it is,i'm happy i back off.

Bottom line, I stopped acting.i think i have made the right thing.this is another chapter of my life.its a good experience indeed.

lets post some randoms thought.

if you think i am like any other ordinary people who can easily get jealous and merajuk with small2 things,u are so wrong. i am sensitive.more than u realised. things that org lain rase is not a big issue,sometimes gave the biggest impact to me.deal with it lah kan.i'm not boasting around with my sensitiveness. i am not proud of it at all.

i think this whole ptptn thing is a crap.cut the crap lah wahai kerajaan.i've been leaving around the people who is involve with this loan system.me,myself have been following and temaning fatin everywhere to settle her ptptn from the very beggining.bende ni sgtlah menyusahkan pelajar.getting the stamp and signature from the school itself is not an easy task.imagine if we are leaving in melaka and our former school is at kelantan.and imagine we accidently forgot to 'cop' one of the precious ppr,(it was a lot of it in the envelope i tell u) then wat? kene balik all the way to kelantan balik? pfft. i heard about ppl ulang alik balik rumah to settle things.yg dkt2 xpelah gak.not to mention about the loan they gave. some of my fren didnt even get full loan.afta all the hustle and bus tickects they paid for 'cop'.sape nak byr balik? not to forget, the payment basis that can easily increase whenever they the goverment feel like it.yeay. go2 kerajaan!


oh.speaking about kerajaan,its not too late for me to just write a short post about 2009 budget kan.some of the budget really distracted my kepala otak.funniest thing of all,they announced theres no need for citizen to make any payment for electricity bill under rm20 .yeay! long live kerajaan! little to cheer huh? cmon lah. think about it.u tell me who the hell gune electric less thn rm20 a MONTH? on the other hand i think selangor's pkr is doing their job, good.so far so good i'd say.tp not to puji much,we'll see the development later ye.

girls,show to the world that we have the girl power.fucked up all those retards that have been burdening our mind and soul,namely-men.omg.i sounds sexist! trust me i'm not. but in times like this,when most of the girls lost their power to men, i think i should speak up.hahah.ye2 je.

dah lah.i've lost my sense of randomness.wek.love2.bye

Ya Allah.
ampunilah dosa ibubapa ku.
sayangilah mereka seperti yang mereka sayang aku sewaktu aku kecil dulu.
kau ambillah nyawa ku sebelum ahli keluarga ku.
lindungilah kami dari dianiaya manusia,jin,syaitan dan makhluk halus.
golongkanlah kami di kalangan orang-orang yang beriman.

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku
bijak dan pandaikanlah aku dalam pelajaran.
tabahkanlah hati aku dalam segala perkara yang aku lalui.
lindungi aku daripada dimusuhi sebaliknya biarlah semua orang menyukai,menyintai dan menyenangi diriku.

Ya Allah.
kuatkanlah imanku dan dia.
kau tunjukkanlah kebenaran padaku ya Allah.
berikan aku kekuatan untuk memberi dan menerima.
kau tunjukkanlah jalan yang benar.
aku rela kau ambil dia jauh dariku jika dia untuk orang lain.

Ya Allah.
janganlah panjangkan umur aku lebih dari ahli keluargaku.
janganlah biar aku cinta sesuatu lebih dari mu.
janganlah biar aku menjadi lemah dari yang aku mampu.
janganlah berhenti mengujiku Ya Allah.

Ya Allah.
ampunkan dosaku yang selalu meletakkan sesuatu lebih darimu Ya Allah.
ampunkan dosa-dosa ku,ibu bapaku,adik beradikku,kaum keluargaku dan seluruh umat islam ya Allah.

amin ya rabbal alamin



happr ramadhan dear readers

1) Are your parents married or divorced?
married

2) Are you a vegetarian?
i wish

3) Do you believe in Heaven?
yes

4) Have you ever come close to dying?
yeahhh

5) What were u doing 8.00 this morning?
isabela's class

6) Favorite time of day?
nite

7) Do you mind dating someone of the same sex?
i dont.:)

8)Do you wear makeup?
haha.no.only on official ceremony

9) Ever have plastic surgery?
no

10) Do you color your hair?
no

11) What do you wear to bed?
anything cormfy

12) Have you ever done anything illegal?
lots of things in the past,several things in present.hehe

13) Can you roll your tongue?
ala.takk.

14) Do you tweeze your eyebrows?
erk no

15) What kind of sneakers?
anything nice n cormfy

16) What is something you are excited about?
going back to subang this weekend (again)

17) What is your Hair color?
black

18) Do you talk a lot?
yes.hehe.but sombong at times.

19) Do you snore?
tak kot.ask fatin

20) If you could go anywhere in the world where would it be?
subang

21) Do you sleep with animals?
yeah.its fatin.:)) HAHAHA

22) If you won the lottery, what would you do first?
if i'm insane enough to play,then i'll definitely will buy a car when i won.

23) Gold or silver?
silver

24) Hamburger or hot dog?
none

25) If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be?
nasi.je.hehe

26) City, beach or country?
subang.:D (annoyed huh?)

27) What was the last thing you touched?
lappies.duhh

28) Where did you eat last?
d'nangka

29) When is the last time you cried?
last week

30) Do you read blogs?
yes!

31) Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex?
without my tudung? no,definitely no.

32) Is there anyone you like right now?
yeahh

33) What’s your favorite shampoo conditioner and soap?
sunsilk for both

34) Do you talk in your sleep?
fatin said no

35) Are you popular?
no lah

36) Are you currently depressed?
no.not yet for this week atleast.

39) Ever met anyone famous?
yeah2

40) Do you feel that you’ve had a truly successful life?
not yet.long way to go

41) Who is the rudest person in your life?
i'll skip this

42) Ricki Lake or Oprah Winfrey?
oprah

43) Basketball or Football?
basketball i miss.huhuhu

44) How long do your showers last?
not sure

45) Automatic or do you drive a stick?
auto

46) Cake or ice cream?
cakes!

47) Are you self-conscious?
yeaahh

4 Do you care what people think?
patheticly,yes.

49) Have you ever given money to a beggar?
mestilah

50) Have you been in love?
been in love,still in love.forever with my frens and family.

51) Where do you wish you were?
no where

52) Have you rejected someone?
yes

LAYER 1 : ON THE OUTSIDE
Name : siti aliah kamaruddin
Birth Date : 15/06/1989
Current Status : single and invisible
Eye color : white.hehe
Righty of lefty : righty.


LAYER 2 : ON THE INSIDEMy
Heritage : Malay.tah.i dont give a damn
My Fears : myself
My Weaknesses : feeling of being left out
My Perfect Pizza : thai seafood!

LAYER 3 : YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW
My thoughts first waking up : things happened yesterday
My most missed memory : took bath with my kakak.:)

LAYER 4 : MY PICK
Pepsi or Coke : Coke
McDonald or Burger King : mcd kot.none actually
Single or grouped dates : groups
Adidas or Nike : nike
Tea or Nestea : tea
Chocolate or Vanilla : chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee : none.i dont drink any kinds of coffee.except for latte lh.

LAYER 5 : DO YOU…
Smoke : no
Curse : every second
Take a shower : yes lah
Have a crush : yes
Think you’ve been in love : yeahh
Go to school : not anymore
Want to get married : to sounds normal, i'd say yes
Believe in yourself : depends on circumstances

LAYER 6 : IN THE PAST
Alcohol : yes,tasted a perfume before.ngah.haha
Gone to the mall : like,who havent?
Been on stage : yes.
Eaten sushi : yess.loving every bite
Dyed your hair :no

LAYER 7 : HAVE YOU EVER
Played a stripping game : i wish.haha
Changed who you were to fit in : they changed to fits me :P:P

LAYER 8 : AGE YOU’RE HOPING…
To be married : n/a

LAYER 9 : IN A GUY…
Best eye color : your colour
Best hair color : yours
Short hair or long hair : short
Best height : i dont mind
Attitude : well behave

LAYER10 : WHAT WERE YOU DOING…
A minute ago : typing answers
Hour ago : reading blogs
4.5 hours ago : tido
Year ago : who the hell cares anyway

LAYER 11 : FINISH THE SENTENCES…
I love: myself
I feel : nothing
I hate : what i hide
I hide : what i feel
I miss : my frens and kakak
I need : to kick my butt of to study for constitution

LAYER 12 : TAGGING 5 PEOPLE
fatin amanina
batchiwa
naadira
nina rahim
you

12hours

217km

I understand now why people do not go to sleep just looking at their other half breathing slowly and sleep through their dreams.

i'm trying so hard to write.but i dunno whats happening.i cant write.this whole thing doesnt feels right at all.

Ya Allah.i need your guidance.if this is all wrong,pls put an end to it before it even begin.
show me the truth before things happen.

this post is full of pictures.i'm at home and i miss everyone.

this was my outing with the SJianz.annis came back from UK for summer hols.this was at shah alam's mapley.

on the same day,we went to tasik shah alam,bought durians and had a picnic there.it was hell fun before the raining part of the day.darrn.

this was annis's 1st holiday in malaysia after going to UK.kat rumah annis in shah alam.

this was during one of the weekend in 2007.i went back from melaka and they fetch me in pudu .then we went straight to one utama for dinner.
this was the surprise party they threw for me during the final sem hols.
girls day out during the final sem hols as well.

this was during the 2nd week of hari raya,last year.we decided to go to PD.it was gile seronok.we spent 2days n 1 nite there.syam drove us all the way from subang to pd.
last year.our favourite place.kenny rogers.
this was the day annis went to uk.it was in klia.everyone was there,but not in the picture.

ok.thats all for now.oh yeah.this last 2 pics was taken yesterday.3rd august.it was just a gen2+bangsar+nina n i.:):)

now it make sense why i love subang so much kan?

fuck lah.lately i posted some sampah je kan.i know.lets just not talk about 'it' anymore.anyway,midterm fever has started.i'll be having my exam on the 25th july(friday) which will be the MALAYSIAN LEGAL SYSTEM exam.i dont know about others but,i havent fully prepared.i have like,2days from now to do the final touch up.looking back to my alpha year,i have bad records for my midterm exams.i dont usually get full marks like the other pandai2 ppl and all i ever get was the average marks.damn.i have to work smart this time.

next week,we'll be having exam for CONTRACT LAW.it will be on the 1st august.okay.that one.that.is.a.hard.subject.sumpah takot.i've spent too much time for MLS and i havent start studying for contract.time management=failed.shit lah.wtf were i thingking tah.while i'm writing this,i can feel the tense.trying not to be panic,i promise i'll start reading tomorrow.

i have to go back to subang this week.i have to.i am so trully,madly,honestly,deeply homesick by now.foodsick.friendsick as well.i'll be home,insyaAllah but subang's friend..i dont think i'll have time to meet u ppl.because i'll be bringing books to read.huhu.BUT.dont worry.my midsem break is around the corner.it IS around the corner.it will be on the 4th anyway.cuti nnt sumpah nk minum kat dome.evryone should try it there.wtf.exam!exam!.wtf.bye

i knew i wont listen to my heart.
instead,i listened to them.as always.
i'm sorry.
trust me,its not just you.
i hurt my heart as well.


p/s-kuri died.
p/s-kak rozie pandi masak.

and you turned back.
that was when i clearly realised.

kadang-kadang bila kita tak nak,benda selalu datang.
kita tanya hati,is this it?
tapi hati cakap dia pon tak tau.
haih.
benda ni buat kita berfikir.
to move on or not to move on is what i've been thingking.
hari ni kita tulis sebab kita takleh berhenti berfikir.
kita cuba nak tulis pasal awk tapi it sounds so empty.
as empty as a hole in my body.
u're beautiful indeed.
kita tahu kita ada tertinggal sesuatu.
yg kita tak tau is whether i rather it stay long kat situ
or i rather have it back.
haih.
it sets me thingking about you.
all day long.
this is not good kan kawan2?

i am easily get annoyed with all sorts of things.i get annoyed with things like-what ppl say,what ppl do what ppl thought and to the worst extend,i sometimes annoyed by the way how ppl makes their decision.yes.i easily get annoyed with stupid decision.and stupid act.and stupid manner.i cant live around stupidity.literaly means,stupid.no brain.i define stupid as one that couldnt think rationally,provide no good reason in making decision and take for granted everything that suppose to be important in one's life.

i can easily get emotionally annoyed when i dont understand what is going on around me.that makes me feel stupid.being emotionally annoyed makes me a self centered person when all i ever did was trying to understand things according to my way.i am not saying i'm not stupid.i am like every other human being in the world.but i put my piroritized in 'rationality'.u guys have no idea how much i really care about rationality.i am not intelligent,trust me.i dont usually think out of the box.i have my own reasons why i think rationality is so important in one's life.

when i look at people,i always have this thing to catagorized them into rational or unrational group of ppl.call it a bad habit but i rather mentioned it as a part of my sacred inner that i sometimes wish i dont have.when i get annoyed with something,i turned out to be moody gile.its so easy to understand me i guess.when u realised i am not acting the way i am,thats when i am annoyed.i am not a moody person but this small2 things could just easily take away all my happy mood.tak sukeee

sumpah gua annoyed.

did i mentioned that i have the best housemates?

to all the syarifahs..this post,is for u.:D:D:D

one of the syarifah (i dont noe which one) had tidied our house yesterday and when i woke up,i realised everything was in order.for that,i wanna thank u.

terima kasih ya.

this group of people make me feels like home.

not that subang-kinda-home.

its my new-kinda-home.

melaka home.

yeah.i dont have any bad feelings saying that.

at last.:):)

in case if u havent noticed,Anwar is facing the latest sodomy allegation against him.

and in case u havent noticed this is not the first one.

in case u havent noticed,khairi jamaluddin had spoken out.

and in case u havent noticed,Tun had made a comment too.

in case u havent noticed,Anwar's accuser is a 23 year old men.

and in case u havent noticed,he gets only 1.69 for his gpa
and factually speaking, hes a uni drop out.

in case u havent noticed i am enjoying this kinda case.

and in case u havent noticed,i'm a political activist.

after this last line i wrote,
i found myself saying-wtf.hahah

malaysian political are so much fun.especially when being like me,i watched from far all the drama and without fail,i laughed.be a politician.be retard.be stupid.it wont make any better for the world.but please.please.dont stop speaking up because like any other bored student,i need entertaiment.

she entered the class.she waited.he wasnt there.

10mins later

he entered.looking all good.he spoke softly.

she smiled.

minutes later.

he asked.
what's the capital city of malaysia?

they answered
kuala lumpur

she smiled.half laughed.

he said.
good.
good try.

he pointed her
yes you.whats the capital city of Malaysia?

she answered
putrajaya

he smiled.

he asked
whats the capital city of canada?

they answered
toronto

he replied
its like saying north korea is a city in singapore.

they laughed.

she smiled.
and thought,
sometimes,malaysian ppl just dont care.
shameful of us.
including me.i mean her.

that picture.its random anyway.

ok.theres this girl.wait.i wont be telling names here bcoz i know somehow,she'll read.i wanna give her some name.it'll be fun.ok i got one.i'm naming that girl as 'herpes'.damn.that feel noiicee.

herpes here is one of my friend in mmu.atleast that was wat i thought before.apperantly i guess God love me a lil bit more than harpes.pity girl indeed.one of her friend happened to tell me about what herpes been bitching about me all this while.

surprisingly,that doesnt gave me even a slightly shocked.it was a good try tho.tahniah lah weh.i've been bitch-ed (is that even a word?? wtv) like,so many times with so many ppl.not to boast around,i'm actually proud to say that i am immune with all this fucking stuff.see.i'm being modest.wtf.

my name must taste good because its always in somebody's mouth.yes.i'm quoting.bitching about me must be fucking fun kan.maybe it feels like eating some nasi lemak sambal lebih telur letak atas,harga kurang kan? maybe it feels like winning some lucky draw when u actually didnt even buy the lucky draw ticket.KAN? answerrr me bitcchhess and bastardss!!

i dont fucking care about that fucking things u've been fucking talking since fucking forever.try to change me and i'll ask u to rot in hell.try to confront and i'll fucking annoyed u to hell.tell me i'm super sensitive and i'll say the bad words in front of ur face and we'll see who is d sensitive baby there.tell me i'm irresponsible and i'll thank u for realising.tell me i'm hypocrite and i SWEAR i'll slap ur face.

i'm sorry for this emotional post.
just stop,u people.
once and for all.
just stop.

3 against Italy
4 against France
and finally,
2 against Romania.

the game was rather boring during the 1st half.that caused me to watch the 2nd half all alone when everyone had fall asleep.dutch was saving their players,playing it safe and they did missed some attempt.the 2nd half was a happy moment for me when huntellar scored the 1st goal and Persie scored another.damn.they shouldnt sleep and left me chearing alone.dutch played extraodinary well in this year's euro.

on the other event,italy won 2-0 to france.i am an all time france supporter since forever and being one,i felt devestated.they should have their chance to win if abidal wasnt given the red card and ribery didnt get injured.i wanted to see more of them in euro actually.but they didnt played well.not this time.

so,Italy and Netherland are qualified to the quarter finals.i bet all the dutch supportes wanna see more goal from dutch.we demand for moreeee dutches~

today is my first day in degree.it was..em..okay .i'll be living in emerald park apartment for,i dunno for how long.as long as i want i guess.my place is fine.the housemates,rooms and everything else is okay for a good start,atleast.

so far so good i'd say.its fun tho when we have lesser class compared to the foundation year.i'll be free for the whole day tomorrow.:):)

i am doing fine here.but the moment my parents went home after sending me to malacca,i already misses subang.a lot.

so we did went out n had the greatest time of all.surprisingly with the lack of time n money(kot),they managed to threw a surprise celebration for me.celebration in advance i'd say.to sara,nina,batch,pja,mimi thank you for the great time.sara thx for the flower shape pillow,batch for the blanket,nina for the shawl(lol batch) ,mimi for the soft toy n everyone for the cake n the laughter.oh ya.pantun.

terima kasih daun keladi

lain tahun buat surprise lagi!

kt syg korg hawi2~

cheers :D

ini blanket dari batch.dia suruh post dlm blog dan bawa pulang ke mmu.setelah 12 tahun kt mintak kan.haha.terima kasih daun keladi.em..haha.sudah.slmt mlm dunia.

greetings people.lately i realised i wrote short post je kan.(i mistakenly typed shirt)wtf.i wrote shirt post.post about shirt.i wear shirt,and i write.wtf.anyway,my holiday has come to an end.i guess 3 weeks doesnt stay too long.it comes and it goes.next week,i'll be typing blogs in my new room in my new apartment in malacca or melaka or wateva it is spelled..shit.typing the word malacca itself gave me that bad feeling.

after getting my result,i am now officialy finished my foundation in law year.frankly speaking (or typing or wtv) the foundation year has been the most taughest year in my 18 years of life.take note that i'm talking about my 18 years of life.i dont know what might come later lah kan.dont blame me if in 4-5 years time ahead i might be giving this taughest year award wtf to the other years.anyhow i'm praying for a better life ahead.i had enough with those days at mmu.so bachelor in law,here i come! wuhu.

tomorrow is our girls day out n we'll be going to the redbox karaoke.i'm so excited.shera if u happend to read this,kt sgt sedih awk xdpt bersama.wah.and good luck for your interview.i'll be praying.and pray for me dat i wont spent all my last money tomorrow so that we can go out again on thursday or friday.or both. u all know how much i wanted to end my holiday with the most great/memorable/precious way kan.and its you ppl who can make it come true.now i sounds like some game show host.wtf.

oh yeah.i'll be 19 years OLD in about 4 days time.(hint.hint)damn.i'm old.1 year older means 1 year matured n stuff.i just hope i'll be more organize by now.and more independent.and more tolerance.i really have to be a better person than whom i actually are.girls can dream rite? dat is what i'm doing.good night all.

love.

Thank You Allah

alhamdulillah.

thanks for all the prayers.
much love from aliakama to all of you.because i'm so happy:)

good life

the definition lies in you

but you wasnt there.

.sigh.

wait.they never began to be able to end.

atleast that is what you thought.

you wont come back kan.

will you?

malaya genius

"if ever anyone approaches me to do a box set of the 3 films, i'd include the deleted scenes. but who would be interested in compiling my films, and even if there were someone, who would buy it anyway!"

i will! i will!

p/s: credit to yasmin for her new mcd KAKI BOLA commercial.its one of her masterpiece.

ghostly ghost

dayuumm.cant believe i watched ghost again.haha.blame me for being super bored this holiday.i pick up some lines that somehow,gave big impact to that drama...again,i have all the time in the world and i actually paused and typed all this lines.

"..but with jamal,i can be sad,grummpy or boring.i can be real for once.and he's just been so sweet,checking out on me to make sure that i'm okay"- julie

"...i was the guy she'd turned to after a guy make her cry.i was the only one who make her happy.she never saw that.she still end up with those guys.guy like zack imran" - dr.jamal

"u know,i am so sure we gonna solve everything soon pastu,garenti u ok.promise." - eza

"look,eza.we all miss zack.what u're doing here its not going to bring zack back.u know,its not.."- jimmy

"all my life i've never really bother to find out how people really are inside.but not untill now." -zack imran

"eza.i'm here.just focus.(after a few second eza tried to stay focus,she's able to see zack).selama ni i tak pernah tinggalkan u.cuma u yang tak nampak i." -zack

"there are days when i miss him but i know he is there.ther are days when i can feel him,his breath,keeping me warm.there are days when i feel his strenght.telling me that i can be so much more.and there are days when i dont think about him.those are the easiest,calmest days of all."- eza

"Dear eza,

kalau u dapat baca surat ni maknanye u dah sedar semula.ia juga bermaksud i dah tiada lagi.semasa i tulis surat ni,i semakin lemah.nak tulis pon susah.nak pegang pon payah.

makin lama,kuasa i makin hilang.tak tau lah kenapa.mungkin masa i dalam dunia ni dah semakin suntuk.terima kasih eza.terima kasih untuk semua yang u buat untuk i.terima kasih sbb u je yg tolong i.

i hope that u have a good life ahead.dont be afraid to follow your dreams.be all u can be because u only have one life to live.who knows maybe , just maybe we'll meet again....in another life.

always,

zack "

privacy

glorious glory!

so i didn't watch it...so what? i am still going to post this anyway.

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i just wanna say this to all those peeps out there who have been anti-MU all their lives esp to all those chelsea's fan especially maliq (haha) and my own ayah,nik and everyone else--

: MU are NOTABLY SINCERELY TRUTHFULLY HONESTLY MADLY DEEPLY UNDENIABLY NOTABLY MAGNIFICENTLY SUPERBLY GREATLY the most POWERFUL team in the whole wide universe right now. MANCHESTER UNITED are.


thanks sooo much to mr. van der sar for becoming the hero of the night.poor terry.i couldnt believe my ears at first when they said dat john terry failed to do the penalty.but after all,van der sar is the best.:D and the rest of the team (standing ovations to them) who'd made it possible to actually shut the a-hole mouths of all the people who always sneer at people who LOVE and ADMIRE the team, namely ME. now who's talking?

i am a bit devestated because i didnt get the chance to celebrate the glorious moment with everyone.Somehow,damn! i feel good.hahah.i feel damn good when i am able to condmened my chelshit supporters friends.hahah :P:P they told me dat last night match was rather emotional. was it true? damn chelsea.wat the hell were they thingking? wat the hell were drogba trying to do? hahaha.its kinda funny lah weh.

that was the best moment.
glory glory man utd!
:D



YES! the cups ours! the rest fan of the other team of the world can shut up and envy our freaking glory.

a new change

hello friends.
i've change my blog's colour. i kinda more like it to be less darker, and more pics i'd say.wtf.
those picture in the right hand side is some of the collection of my favourite pictures.and i cant make up my mind which one to put and the result is,i put up lots of it.a lots of it.wtf.sorry if it looks messy.

by the way,i'll appreciate if u guys can vote for the new poll i've putted there.please vote.there will be more poll coming up so,vote if u want and dont vote if u dont feel like it.wtf.ok2.the thing is now,i welcome all of u readers to my new blog.not really new i'd say.new looking blog.ok2.welcome to my new-looking-so-white-full of-pictures-blog! so,thank u for coming and have a nice day people.

lots of love,
aliahkama

two D's phenomena

its a hell tiring week for me and i wish i could just jump on the couch watching my two biggest star singing in american idol but unfortunelty,i cant.dammit.ok back to the issue.the incredible Ds. the two D i'm referring to here is the ever so gorgeous looking guy,DAVID COOK and the cutie pie DAVID ARCHULETA.there are both the top 3 of AMERICAN IDOL season 7.i love them both but i think David A will make it all the way to final and win the title.but David C on the other hand is going to grow fantastically in the industry.

I have fall in love with Archuleta since his audition.he's adorable and cute and sweet and has the voice of an angel.he's so down to earth and listening to his voice every week just make me feels like he's mine.hahha.bullcrap.no2.i mean,listening to him will make us wonder how such a boy aged 16 can sing damn well like he did.he is sweet.so sweet i'd say.

David Cook is the best thing ever.i started to like him when he sang always be my baby by mariah carey.i am known as the biggest fan of mariah.looking at him performing dat song so fucking good make me love him even ,more.during the final 3,he sang i dont wanna miss a thing by aerosmith which is happened to be my all time favourite song.damn.can u guys just see the connection here? i mean.he sang songs i like.from the singer i adore.seems like pleasing me isnt it? hahaha.i love u like crazy my dear david cook.

i'll write more l8er

special dedication

dear fatin.

reasons why i wanna thank you.

You are always down for me,
have always been around me when i was bad.
You look up for me when everyone was downing me.
You believe me when everone was making up stories.
You trust me when everone says dont.
You always did understand.
You gave me strenght to go on.
There was so many times when i was affraid
and then you come to me and say to me i can face anything.
No one else can do what u have done for me.

And for that, i thank you for all.

sincerely,
aliahkama.

art of movie

these are the top rated movie in my personal view.

The Notebook.starring Ryan and Rachel McAdams.The Notebook is basically the journal that Noah kept recorded everything that happened with Allie & him.

Truly, this film is an eye opener for us to discover what true love is.despite the challenges we face on a daily basis,there are things in life that make the experience truly worth it.

The most romantic movie i ever seen.The setting was beautiful.Rachel was fun and full of exitement.It is made with simplicity but give big impact in one's memory.for me,atleast. "Behind every great love is a great story"

10 Things I Hate About You.Although the plot is simple,this movie gave the biggest impact in my life,apart from sepet.

I remember i first watched this movie when i was 10 years old with my sisters and cousins.it is sentimental to have a memory watching this enchanting movie with my love one.

This sentimental valued movie staring julia and heath ladger.(RIP heath).I remembered the poem read by kat,by my heart.it's lovely.its almost 10 long years but whenever i'm in the sentimental mood,i'll still turn this movie on.

A Walk To Remember.another beautiful romantic movie.This is most certainly not a teen movie.i dont really agree with the idea of some of the teen movies.But this movie,is not.it is for everyone.

I enjoyed the romantic scene with the fantastic script that had been well written.it is certainly a movie to remember :D

Sepet.when they say support local movie i say,choose the best and support Yasmin Ahmad's product.She's tallented and we should be proud of having her in the industry.

i've watched all her products including movie,teledrama and commercial and thougt it was damn brilliant.Sepet is my favourite all time malay movie.

i've watched it for zillion,countless time and remembered by heart all the actors/actress line.Many people dont like this movie and think it is boring.but i do like 'em! :D

Ghost.i am currently attached by this malay series.did i mentioned it is a MALAY series? men.i am so proud.but not to be sarcastic it is actually a chinese product if we can see on the board of direction.anyhow,it is a malaysian prodcut.i LOVE this movie so much.i keep on watching it everyday.it is a damn thriller movie.full of suspense.and the best part is the romantic comedy all blend into a drama.

Eza and zack was the best. out of no where,tiba2 plak i rasa suka kat naz.before this i use to hate him because hes like a bit of annoying.but in this drama,he was hell funny and yeah,romantic.:P eza is sophisticated and zack is funny.they brings out the best in eachother.

my favourite line is when zack said , 'selama ni baru i tau kenapa i masih kat sini.utk perbetulkan kesilapan i and to have u in my life'.damn.i cried like hell when he said this.to all,i beg u..PLEASE WATCH THIS DRAMA at- http://www.8tv.com.my/ :D

This 5 movies are so indecribable and unique in their own ways.I have seen the notebook,10 things and sepet for million times.Everytime i watch it,without fail,i cry.call me a hopeless romantic or watsoever but personally i think it is great to watch a movie that can makes u smile and cry all at the same time,yet come out with such a happy feeling.

thank you

10 things i hate about you

I hate the way you talk to me,

and the way you DIDNT cut your hair.

i hate the way you hold my hand when it was freezing in the class.

i hate the way u say all the right things.

i hate u for making stupid jokes,

and driving me crazy all the time.

I hate it when you almost killed me when you drive your car.

I hate your lousy voice and the way you sing to me.

i hate the way you read my mind.

I hate you so much it makes me sick,

it even makes me rhyme.

I hate it when you lie.

I hate it when you make me laugh,

even worse when you make me cry.

I hate it when you’re not around,

and the fact that you didn’t call.

But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you,

not even close…

not even a little bit…

not even at all.

sports day 2

i miss my school year.last saturday i get the chance to meet all of my juniors and former teachers of sekolah menengah subang jaya at mpsj.it was overwhelming.

my university life was a hell disaster.

multimedia university.urgh

i miss school and everything about school.

those were the days when everyone appericiate me as a whole.
those were the days when i had had the highest social skills.
those were the days when people love me for doing things.
those were the days when i became well-known for my own ability.
those were the days when i had so much fun.
those were the days when i have everyone around me.
those were the days when social activity was the major thing in my life.
those were the days when i enjoyed being myself

but.those were the days and today...

today is the day when all my social skills has dropped

today is the day when everyone putted the blame on me.

today is the day when people disrespect me.

today is the day when i feel sad most of the time.

today is the day when i am all by myslef.

today is the day when i couldnt care less about my social life.

today is the day when i couldnt trust anyone.

today is the day when i forgot to be happy.

sports day 1

hello readers.

last saturday (22nd march 2008) i went to smsj sports day with batch and my adik.first thing in the morning i went to send my adik to MPSJ at about 7am.all of the sudden,i felt sad.i thought all of the situation was hell disturbing.

the road,the timing,the traffic,the breeze,the feeling of me sitting in the car,the car itself.it was disturbing.

i felt a total depressed.for the 5years of schooling in smsj,each year this was the road i've been seeing atleast once in a year for the sports day in MPSJ.i remembered everything.during my school year,ayah was the one who send me to mpsj together with my number of frens who happened to tumpang me every year.every single year we kawad for ranjer puteri.every year,there is always a traffic jammed along the way to USJ and that caused us to be the last one to arrived at the padang.

'adik rase sedih plak lalu kat jalan ni.dulu,ayah yg hantar adik tiap tahun.patu adik ngn kwn2 adik mesti pressure ayah suruh bwk laju skit sbb ktorg selalu lmbt.now adik anta wani plak.pelik gile rase'

rase there refers to perasaan.


i'll write more about sports day.
tq

dead girl

Why you gotta be so mean to me

Why you gotta drag me down just to make me see

You know I don’t listen good and I’m always in need

So why you gotta be so mean to me

This is too hard.

Ya Allah.

Help me to do what is right

and trust you for the rest.

:(

:(

:(

the ballerina princess

thank you shad :D

the wedding dance ::drama::

it was last week,on monday.after all the hardwork and all the group issues we faced,we managed to finished it.it turns out to be okay.but i was dissapointed.we could hve done better.anyhow, thank u fatin and hana for all the hrdwork and advice.PL03's drama was THE BOMB.all 5 short stories were presented SO-FUCKING-WELL.they were so good.the drama was brilliant.congratulations both to PL03/PL04 !:D

qilah was missing

few hours before presentation

it was 3 in the morning

yes,i am sad

i now pronounce,the most happiest person in mmu are currently feeling totally depress this week.
all the chaos occured last week.when i had 3 presentation in a week and i slept for 3-4 hours only per day due to the tons of works given.but atleast,i had all my frens with me and i actually enjoyed dat week so much.this week,things went no so well or i shall say things are going so bad between me and irsahd.the small little tiny misunderstanding added with a huge ego brought us into a big fight.

he said sorry,i said i'm sory too but things are not getting any better untill dis second.i went out with him yesterday hping dat everythings gonna get back to normal but all i felt was an awkward-ism.lots of things happend this weeks.more people hated me.and i couldnt care less about irshad compared to them.i dont care about them.hate me as much as u want.i'm not stupid to do all the dirty work like u said.u people judge me like shit.

irshad khairi johari,i'm sorry for whats going on with us today.i somehow have the feelings that this things cannot be amend.i dont know why am i thingking so negatively but i dont want to give so much hope.i realised that the happiness in mmu wont last long.i miss you so much shad.so much.

the thing is i actually care about what people think about me.and that is why i'm on my bended knee now.all those irrational people i live with,here in mmu make me sick.i hate this place so much,i couldnt even put in words how much i mean it.people are irrational and too emotional at times.and i think i've been influenced by them and dats why i wrote this emotional post.


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i'm going home.
and not coming back
for next week and the following weeks ahead.

happiness

yesterday shad,fatin,lee and i went 4 supper at roti pisang,the mamak place we always lepak at midnite.the different was that night,it was only the 4 of us.zohra was unwell.min went back to her kampong.rathi went to temple.varuna was missing.and everyone else wasnt there.but the 4 of us je dah cukup to made us stayed there for hours.more then 2 hours rasenye.we talked about so much things and one thing that really cought my attention was when irshad said that,i'm the happiest person in mmu.lee and fatin agreed.i asked them y? they said,i seems like dont have any problems going on in my life.ok.lets do the check list.the things that people
consider a PROBLEM is this:

boyfriends(i didnt have one) achecked

crush ( i didnt even bother) achecked

clubs/society ( my social skills has drop and dont even bother to fix it) a checked

assigments ( i'm dealing with it) a checked

studies (i'm stress enough during exam to stress myself on the beggining of the sem) fhm x?
a checked

popularity/image and stuff (to be ugly and unpopular is to be me.so y bother?) achecked

ok.now lets do the counting.i'm dealing quite well with all those things.so I AM THE HAPPIEST PERSON IN MMU.wtf.u noe.the only person that have seen me crying for lotsof time here in mmu is maryam.you noe why my schoolmates use to call me nangis,chengeng and watsoeva? because i cry a lot.i easily cried for small2 things and all.but here,in mmu.i am considered as the person with less problem because i didnt cry in front of people anymore.i didnt tell
ppl about my problems like i used to be. i miss being the old me. when everyone was around me and all i ever did was crying on them and letting go every problems i had.i dont mind ppl think i am happy.dont mind at all.:):)

new semester

introduction to governance and politics (mdm aiza)

assignment group:

fatin amanina

irshad khairi

aliahkama

amirah yasmin

varuna

lee lay peng

zohra

aqilah

rathi

islamic legal history (mdm nir-lofa)

irshad khairi

aliahkama

varuna

rathi

adibah

kak nad

maryam

introduction to business and mengement (mdm kerk)

(business)

fatin amanina

amirah yasmin

maryam

irshad khairi

aliahkama

rathi

adibah

lee lay peng

menega

aqilah

zohra

critical thingking (mdm masyitah)

irshad kahiri

fatin amanina

aliahkama

amirah yasmin

english2 (mdm selva)

(drama)

fatin amanina

aliahkama

ku afiq

hana

varuna

aqilah

sapit

law and society (mr hasbol)

n/a

birthday wish

happy 19th bday batch!

we were 12 when we've been putted in the same class for the 1st time.it was in sekolah agama masjid darul ehsan.in 5B.cant believe how much i hated u back then.hahah.lawok le.
we were 13 when we went to the same school.SMSJ.
when we were in our age of 15 we've been putted in the same class,for the 2nd time.
which was the bestest class in the world,3 BAKTI.
it was all started with this:
'batch,jom tukar tmpt kt nak duduk dgn awk'
smtg2 like dat. hahaha.
men.sitting together in 3bakti for a year was fantastic!
as time flies,when we were 16 we have been seperated by distance and things became thaugh
for our relationship when we reach the age of 17.luckily and alhamdulillah,we manage to overcome all the misunderstanding by the following year.we've been tru the year after spm together and now,here we are.
19th years of life,7 years of knowing eachother,4 years of being bestfren and half a year staying apart.
distance did make us became closer.i'm sorry couldnt be there to celebrate with you.
but i hope u enjoy the surprise i gave.love u much.happy birthday.

dont read

dear my heart beat,

probably this sounds like the rants and race of the love-sick-lunatic.well,it isnt easy to put to words what i feel,but here's my best shot. just to think about it,scares me.how did u do it? how do u make me so incredibly crazy? i guess dat sounds really weird,but i dont know.i'm not the easiest person to understand.i knew my feelings about it were strong, way beyond what i was willing to admit to myslef.just didnt realise it was to strong.

i have no idea if this is right or wrong.for me loving does not mean NEEDING them,it meant WANTING them.sometimes i see myslef hoping.its just a foolish hope dat i know will never come true.and i pray,it will fade away.as for now, i function between maybe and maybe not.but dat set me thingking...does hope and expectation give the same definition?

And i found myself saying:NO

i am usually ok.but at times(especially today) it just become to much to bear.i just have to blog,to share that sacred part of my inner,the thought that i think everyone has but doesnt always say.i know dat pride and ego gets in the way in our relationship.at this time of life,we are surrounded by possibilities of everything,and distract from other ppl,which i know have come between us.

now i sounds so not like gay.
heh.
just feel like writing and this is what happened.
i am no mood for love.

thank u.

the gathering

some of the msges-

the day we decided

gha- bile2? jumaat eh? nak ito..ak blek hr tu gak.nak2! mahu2!

najwa-kt,sntiase setie d kl.ok,nnt tlg bgtau ble eh

rafiq- ok.ble? sbtu ahad ni ke? aku turun.nk jmpe katne?

zulhusni- nextweek tu bile..? Nk pgi. Nk pgi.. Nk pgi..

aqilah- em.insyaAllah.kalo xde aral ye :)

aien- ph,xsabo btul nk jmpe korg.Expcly mizam..hehe!motar xyah join ah.mensemak je!

few days before

mizam- dok,cmne projek mega?

zulhusni-ak dmam dok...on da way nk sihat..nnt aku dtg..tu pn klu xde aral..

raje- xtau lg..tp tgukla dulu ek.em beznye sume ade..lame xjmpe..

blur- dah settlekan blum nengok pete?

a day before

tikah- leeya i cant wait 4 tmorow!

khai-alhamdulillah.currently in perak.die katne? awal gle bdk jengka smpi

gha-al,dorg kne ad kt ts kol bpe? fer soh tgu d,tp ak soh g ngn sean..

rafiq-ok2.amik aku skali kat kl cntrl.haha.thnx.salam.

on d day

gha- al amek kat ktm klg ke sbg? ktorg xkesah pon.he,kete sape?

blur- aku kat kedai mapley kat ioi ne

mizam- rapid alia lmbt lg ke?

after the excitement

rafiq- aleya.thx a lot 4 2day.happiest day weh.siyes aku mst rndu korg pnye ah.sbb tu aku mls gle babi ah nk gather blk.hahah.kan dah jd cam tahi.haha.stdy baek2.lem slm sume klo jmpe lg.mntk maaf byk nyusahkan ko.k.salam.

zul-ayah ak xtrok sgt pon.dah kuar hospital pn.ni ng odw gi urot kt kpg.bpk k kemslm blk..

najwa-thx 4 organizing it.thx a lot.we'll c echothr agai,k?

rafiq- ko jgn buat ak nangis dlm bus ni bengong.papehal jmpe lg al.aku syg kamo sume.jgn nanges slalu :'(

mizam-tq byk2 espcially ko sndiri

aien- hahah.sengal! boling mmg bez.smpi ble ktorg igt!!

khai- thx 4 d lost journey 2 puduraya.ahaks.u r the best in boling..hahah

.it was memorable.

thank you notes

dear all readers,

thank u for spending your time reading my blog.
or rather WASTING your time here, reading my blog.
to the person in jakarta,indonesia i'm honoured to have u here.
a big THANK U for all.
to all readers,
please dont link me yah.
i'm not a good blogger and i think my blog doesnt deserve to be link in any way.
i'm not a good writer and linking my blog wont make any better for the world.
so,just let it be this way.n yah,i want to thank all of u again for visiting.
to make things clear,i will say this again..
i am not a good blogger.
thank u.

what makes me happy

i have all the time in the world and i googled for pictures of delicious foods.hehe.

chocolate hersheys cake

ice cream waffle

banana pie

so people,

thank u :):)

the notes

today is another day.as i sat by the window wondering about stupid things,i asked myself what i really want in life.many people will answer,i want to finish up my studies,get a good job and FINALLY get marry or in other terms "settle down".people answer that question that way and ended it up at the married part.does everyone rily think getting married is the way to settle things down? i have a big doubt on it.in fact,i'm starting to wonder is there such fact dat we have been guarantee to marry our TRUE LOVE instead of a jerk? how can everyone be so sure when they get married.i mean,how on land when they said the magical words 'i do' they seems to b so sure about their decision? i mean,come on.i need the answer.in my life,i've been in a serius relationship with some guys and i never ever had a 'feeling' about me getting married with anyone of them.i'm worried if i wont be able to feel that forever.its stupid when they say,i'm saying this bcoz i never been in love with that so called true love.that is bullshit.when i fall in love with my exes,i love them deeply.in fact, i once said to syafiq that i noe he's my true love bcoz..bcoz..ok.stop it right there.ok.i'm running out of idea to do somemore obiter dictum about this crap.i'm writing this bcoz,my cousin gaga+mus and aien+his bf going to marry this year.yirpie 4 them!:) gaga and mus have been in a relationship for TEN-LONG-YEARS. i'm happy they are finally getting marry.congratulations all.

good friends

some people leave
some people forget
some people just dont know
some people stay
some people cant let go
some people are too insecure to leave
some people leave but come back to visit often, have tea or something. but apparently, even after everything is ironed out, it just isnt enough.

what they dont know is,everythings changed.
what they dont realised is what they did is way absurd.
what they thought is i'm leaving a happy life.
what they ignore is my feeling.
its u.u people hurt me so bad i wish i can just move on without u guys.
i'm hurting and i'm crying.
friends.do u fucking care what i fucking feel?

what i need is just some attention.a lil tiny bit of attention i demand.i dont like feeling left out.u both hurt me so much and yet,u didnt realise.one of u,i msgd u and u just forget.i ran out to fatin's and cried. i didnt tell her what was happening.i just cry. i just cry.the next day i cry.the following day i cry.and today,i'm crying. as for the other 1 person,thank u for making me the last person to know everything.

tell me i'm super sensitive and i'll thank you for caring.
tell me i've done the same thing u're doing rite now when i was in a relationship and i'll turned back time.
tell me u need time and i'll give u a big one.
tell me i'm just a pathetic friend whom doesnt like to see her friends living a happy life and i'll just cry.
tell me i'm not important anymore and i'll thank u for being honest.

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the most bad thing happened in 2007- spm result

the most good thing happened- getting over with the bad one

thank you Allah for everything.

lets hope things will be better this year.

dont just hope,pray.

happy new year friends.