::a place called here::

I've been keeping this for a while and lucky for the readers (not) i'm in a mood of writing right now.i have found myself becoming more,what should i put it here.negative? tah. people have been complaining that i tend to provoke anything that i feel like provoking lately.without even care about other people's feeling.since sy sedang membuka pekung di dada ,i bet most of u will be agreeing by now.kan.

lemme tell u this.i dont provoke people all the time.to make things clear, if u want to ask advice about something,dont expect me to be all kind and nice and say good things that will make u satisfied and happy.because i wont.that was when i 'provoke' lah kot kan.call it watever u want but that is my effing way of expressing my so called advice.and to make things clear juga,i am a very2 bad adviser.

And now after receiving more than one complain,i really think i should stop doing watever i am doing.its juts getting too much for the people to bare with.u know i can choose to be all suportive and positive all the time kan. but instead, i acted negatively towards 'everyhing' and i provoked 'everything' that u people say. i thougt people can understand why i acted that way. human nature. they so love being given false hope.

People hate me for saying things i like.i really think that i should stop letting ppl rationalize things they shoudnt.this whole thing is making me paranoid to speak up.if this is what u people want,then u'll have it. i wont loss anything because i love to think that i'm a rational thingking person.atleast now i am one inside.kill me.stupid hope wins.and u rational thinker,lost.booo!

like other normal human being,i hate being critisized.in fact being me,i just feel like i dont even need one.honestly,i would appreciate if u can just keep it to urself if u really have the intention to condemn me one day.because i had enough.people change and i will.for a better or the worse,u are there to judge.but keep the judgemnet to urself.tell me nicely in a good way to change and i'll try.but honestly, i dont quite like the idea of critisizing without being asked.

If i need ur advice,i'll ask for it ok.in the mean time kita sume buat kerja masing2 and tak payah nak beriya2 try to prove benda yg tah ape2.and tolonglah semua org didunia,jgn make up stories.kt je tau yg kt tgh menipu.so,sukati koranglah.Tuhan is always there to listen and maybe he'll be laughing up there for the stories that we make up.because most of the time the stories we made is something that is beyond what we can achieve.that is how silly a manusia can be.

Enough said.i dont hold anger for long.i'm here to listen.i'll give advice.tp atleast for once think about my situation juga lah before saying things.my current situation.some ppl cant just moved on.one last thing i want to say here is some things are better to be kept by 2 jiwa shj.kalau benda tu serius,there is no need for other people to be knowing the stories kan.i never did that to people.i kept things to myself. and i'm still wondering why people are doing that to me.especially when i am in this condition.


kalau tanak pk secara relevant dan rational pon,atleast just fikir.fikir je.
ok.selamat tido.

ppl like us, we see things differently. perhaps its our creative artistic sides, might also be the poetic (that u are, if u still havent realize it just yet) part in you. we are, as we believe (but others fail to see), special and unique.

we think too much.
we love too much.
in which at the end of the day, we break the things we care the most.
how did those happen?
beats me.
we just do.

i realized over time, speaking up is the best solution. it wont result logically, or the way we want it to be. but it really send the messages cross. and stop letting ppl rationalize things they shouldnt.

believe me,when i read ur laters i remember myself.
once.

gosh.u brought the past alive

- fynn jamal