tension plak

tibe2 terasa tension yg teramat.entahlah.time is running so fast.d holiday has come 2 d end.we r all leaving.i'm going 2 mmu melaka.batch wil b going 2 m3x perlis.gha,peeja,amalina, m3x perak.yg lain2 sume pergi jugak.esok,ktorg (petite) dah plan nak buat kenduri doa selamat kat dewan apartment BNM.ktorg kutip duit skit sorg n bayar mak batch utk masak nasi minyak.hopefully everythings gonna went smoothly.

hari ni n smlm i was a bit pissed off.it seems like i'm d only one yg nak buat kenduri tu.sbenarnye x..sume pon tgh bersmgt.cuma,i dunno y am i so tension 2day.smlm pon,dlm conference (me+batch+maliq+syam) i back off awal2.dgn alasan nk tido.sbnrnye x.

my mind juz cant stop thingking about everything.thinking of d fact dat they r all leaving make me so damn fucking weak.shit.i have less than a week 2 spend wif gha,batch,peeja n all those frens.i kurangkan online nowadays bcoz i am afraid of being alone bile diorg dah pegi.i'm sory gha.tp d pc prob is true jugak.diz is me.d worse side of me is afraid of loosing my frens.next week,at diz hour i will be writing diz alone,without anyone buzzing me.without anyone 2 play games wimme.withou anyone 2 shop till drop wimme.without anyone 4 me 2 go lunch wif.without them.


peeja,batch,leen,neena,sara,shera,mimi..god,diz is so hard.diorg sume xpnah kuar dr subang 4 a long period.d thougth of having them in subang when i went 2 muar make me happy.i noe dat sumone is there.now dat evyone is leaving,i dunno wat will happen when i go 2 melaka.i'm scared.i'm scared 2 death if diz frenship will end here.i love them wif every single beat of my heart.

i still igt d day i dapat tawaran ke mrsm muar.dat time,batch ade kat umah.balik dr skolah.masa kat skolah sume org sibuk2 check dpt msk mrsm ke x..mase tu,i lgsg xcheck.sbb xkesah pon dpt ke x.n mmg rase xde hrpn dapat..so,ktorg blk umah cm biasa.then,my mom call dr office.her question was 'adik tau x adik dapat ke x?' i said 'entah.xcheck lagi.my mom,'rase2nye?'n i was like 'tipu?? tipu ke???' pastu my mom ckp 'betullah.dpt mrsm muar'.ok.then,i masuk bilik.batch was there.pastu i gtau ah.n tanpa diduga,both of us cried in sadness.ktorg nangis dua2 bgi nak rak.lama sgt.dua2 diam je.its not dat ktorg happy.tp its more 2kerisauan.tears cant stop falling from our eyes.mase tu rase sedih yg teramat sgt.pastu,batch lah yg teman i n my mom beli sume stuff nak g maktab.shopping2 sume kat parade.sume tu still fresh lg in my mind.


now,terbalik plak.batch pergi dulu.i teman die beli sum stuff jugak 4 m3x.pergi mid valley.pergi one utama beli kasut.batch kate xleh bwk i g shopping kasut sbb sume i soh beli.pantang nmpk offer.murah skit,i suh.n end up dgn batch beli 3 kasut in 1 day.shopping was fun but d feeling was so hard.batch jauh sgtlah.perlis.aduh.