::a place called here::

dear fatin

the only good thing i have in malacca is you,my other half and my future.
i've lost my other half and i dont want to lose you and my future. today,i went back to malcca just for the sake of my future and you. i want to study well here and make it possible for me to achieve my ambition and to make myself proud of me.i swear i want to be rich.thats the real aim of my life.i dont care what other ppl might say.

oh anyway fatin.
the purpose of me writing this to you is to tell you that i'm trully,madly sorry for what i've done.
i may not be the bestest friend of yours but what i know is you are my whole life.ever since we became close to each other,i knew that i cannot live without you.i can hardly breath without you by my side.the thougth of having you in the same room every nite make me feel secured,make me feel that everything in the world is going to be okay,make me feel someone's is watching me tru the night and for a while,make me feel at home.

this may sounds like craps to ppl who didnt know what we have been tru this two years.
it may sounds like another emo post of mine.but who the hell cares anyway.this is my way to express my feelings.dont tell me to cut the crap because i wont.

fatin,

we have been tru alot together.yes,i mean A LOT.its only 2 years but we have built such a strong relationship together and eventhough you are younger than me,u are like my elder sis.u pampered me too much at times and u took care of me more than anyone could ever done to me in this world.

but yet,i left you behind.
i dont deserve to be forgiven by any chance.its not you.it ws them.it ws the place.it ws the situation.ok,yes,i am running away from my problems.at times i thought i am strong enough to face everything here.but that day,it was too much too bear.i couldnt stayed much longer so i went away.it was my fault.it was nothing yours.you have no idea how much i cried all the way there.all the feelings blend into one.i didnt know where to run.

i needed space for myself.i wish i could bring you along but i dont want to kena tuduh with anyone anymore.i'm sorry dat u have to face this alone.untill now,i feel bad.so bad.fatin,i wanna thank you for everything.

thank you for always being there for me.
thank u for choosing me as your rummate.
thank u for crying all nite long with me when he blew evrtg.
thank u for holding my hand when i miss being hold.
thank u for the hug when i feel lost.
thank u for the kiss when u are horny.
thank u for giving a smile when i was scared.
thank u for cooking me dinner.
thank u for the memories of your car.
thank u for bringing me to pantai puteri when i thought i've lost everything.
thank u for teaching me to cook rice.
thank u for scolding me for being bad.
thank u for staying up just to listen to my story.
thank u for sharing the lauhgter.
thank u for believing in me when everone doesnt.
thank u for understanding me when the whole world was against me.
thank u for being just fatin.
thank u for everything.


i'm sory for being a bad friend of yours.i need you more than you ever need me.